I
Inmyyounger
ve
andmorevulnerableyearsmyfatherverdi
gavemesomeadvicethatI’vebeenturningoverinmymindeverberi
since.“Wheneveryoufeellikecriticizinganyone,”hetold
bana
me,“justrememberthatallthepeopleinthisworldhaven’thadtheadvantagesthatyou’vehad.”Hedidn’t
söylemedi
sayanymore,butwe’veher zaman
alwaysbeenunusuallycommunicativeinbir
areservedway,andIanladım
understoodthathemeantagreatdealmorethanthat.Inconsequence,I’minclinedtoreserve
tüm
alljudgements,ahabitthathasaçtı
openedupmanycuriousnaturestomeve
andalsomademethevictimofnotabirkaç
fewveteranbores.Theabnormal
zihin
mindisquicktodetectve
andattachitselftothisqualitywhenitappearsinbir
anormalperson,andsoitcameaboutthatincollegeIwasunjustlyaccusedofbeingbir
apolitician,becauseIwasprivytothesecretgriefsofwild,unknownmen.Çoğu
Mostoftheconfidenceswereunsought—frequentlyIhavefeigneduyku
sleep,preoccupation,orahostilelevitywhenIrealizedbysomeunmistakablesignthatanintimaterevelationwasquiveringonthehorizon;fortheintimaterevelationsof
genç
youngmen,oratleastthetermsinwhichtheyexpressonları
them,areusuallyplagiaristicandmarredbyobvioussuppressions.Reservingjudgementsis
bir
amatterofinfinitehope.Iam
hala
stillalittleafraidofmissingsomethingifIunutursam
forgetthat,asmyfathersnobbishlysuggested,ve
andIsnobbishlyrepeat,asenseofthefundamentaldecenciesisparcelledoutunequallyatbirth.Ve
And,afterboastingthiswayofmytolerance,Igeldim
cometotheadmissionthatithasbir
alimit.Conductmaybefoundedonthe
sert
hardrockorthewetmarshes,ama
butafteracertainpointIdon’tcarewhatit’sfoundedon.WhenIcamebackfromtheEast
geçen
lastautumnIfeltthatIwantedtheworldtobeinuniformve
andatasortofmoralattentionforever;I
istemedim
wantednomoreriotousexcursionswithprivilegedglimpsesintothehumanheart.Sadece
OnlyGatsby,themanwhogiveshisadını
nametothisbook,wasexemptfrommyreaction—Gatsby,whorepresentedher şeyi
everythingforwhichIhavebir
anunaffectedscorn.Ifpersonalityisanunbrokenseriesofsuccessfulgestures,thentherewas
şey
somethinggorgeousabouthim,someheightenedsensitivitytothepromisesoflife,aseğer
ifhewererelatedtooneofthoseintricatemachinesthatregisterearthquakeson
tenthousandmilesaway.Thisresponsivenesshadnothingtodowiththatflabbyimpressionability
olan
whichisdignifiedundertheadı
nameofthe“creativetemperament”—itwasanextraordinarygiftforumut
hope,aromanticreadinesssuchasIhaveneverfoundinanybaşka
otherpersonandwhichitisnotlikelyIshalleverfinddaha
again.No—Gatsbyturnedoutallrightatthe
sonunda
end;itiswhatpreyedonGatsby,whatfouldustfloatedinthewakeofhisdreamsthattemporarily
kapattı
closedoutmyinterestintheabortivesorrowsve
andshort-windedelationsofmen.Myfamilyhavebeenprominent,well-to-dopeoplein
bu
thisMiddleWesterncityforüç
threegenerations.TheCarrawaysaresomethingof
bir
aclan,andwehavebir
atraditionthatwe’redescendedfromtheDukesofBuccleuch,ama
buttheactualfounderofmylinewasmygrandfather’sbrother,whocameburaya
hereinfifty-one,sentasubstitutetotheCivilSavaş
War,andstartedthewholesalehardwarebusinessthatmyfathercarriesonbugün
today.Ineversawthisgreat-uncle,
ama
butI’msupposedtolooklikehim—withözel
specialreferencetotheratherhard-boiledpaintingthathangsinfather’soffice.IgraduatedfromNewHavenin1915,
sadece
justaquarterofacenturyaftermyfather,ve
andalittlelaterIparticipatedinthatdelayedTeutonicmigrationknownastheBüyük
GreatWar.Ienjoyedthecounter-raidsothoroughly
o
thatIcamebackrestless.Insteadofbeingthewarmcentreoftheworld,theMiddleWest
şimdi
nowseemedliketheraggededgeoftheuniverse—soIdecidedtogitmeye
goEastandlearnthebondbusiness.Herkes
EverybodyIknewwasinthebondbusiness,soIsupposeditcouldsupportbir
onemoresingleman.Allmyaunts
ve
andunclestalkeditoverasiftheywerechoosingbir
aprepschoolforme,ve
andfinallysaid,“Why—ye-es,”withçok
verygrave,hesitantfaces.Fatheragreedtofinancemefor
bir
ayear,andaftervariousdelaysIgeldim
cameEast,permanently,Ithought,inthespringoftwenty-two.Thepracticalthingwastofindroomsinthecity,
ama
butitwasawarmseason,ve
andIhadjustleftbir
acountryofwidelawnsve
andfriendlytrees,sowhenbir
ayoungmanattheofficesuggestedthatwetakebir
ahousetogetherinacommutingtown,itsoundedgibi
likeagreatidea.He
buldu
foundthehouse,aweather-beatencardboardbungalowateightybir
amonth,butattheson
lastminutethefirmorderedhimtoWashington,ve
andIwentouttothecountryalone.I
vardı
hadadog—atleastIvardı
hadhimforafewdayskadar
untilheranaway—andanyaşlı
oldDodgeandaFinnishwoman,whomademybedve
andcookedbreakfastandmutteredFinnishwisdomtoherselfüzerinde
overtheelectricstove.Itwaslonelyfora
gün
dayorsountilonesabah
morningsomeman,morerecentlyarrivedthanI,stoppedmeontheroad.“HowdoyougettoWestEggvillage?”
he
sordu
askedhelplessly.Itoldhim.
Ve
AndasIwalkedonIwaslonelynolonger.Iwasaguide,apathfinder,anoriginalsettler.
Hehadcasuallyconferredonmethefreedomoftheneighbourhood.
Ve
Andsowiththesunshineve
andthegreatburstsofleavesgrowingonthetrees,justasthingsgrowinhızlı
fastmovies,Ihadthatfamiliarconvictionthatlifewasbeginningoveryeniden
againwiththesummer.Therewassomuchtoread,forone
şey
thing,andsomuchfinehealthtobepulleddownoutofthegenç
youngbreath-givingair.Ibought
bir
adozenvolumesonbankingve
andcreditandinvestmentsecurities,ve
andtheystoodonmyshelfinkırmızı
redandgoldlikenewmoneyfromthemint,promisingtounfoldtheshiningsecretsthatonlyMidasve
andMorganandMaecenasknew.Ve
AndIhadthehighintentionofreadingbirçok
manyotherbooksbesides.Iwasratherliteraryincollege—one
yıl
yearIwroteaseriesofverysolemnve
andobviouseditorialsfortheYaleNews—andşimdi
nowIwasgoingtogetirecektim
bringbackallsuchthingsintomylifeve
andbecomeagainthatmostlimitedoftüm
allspecialists,the“well-roundedman.”Bu
Thisisn’tjustanepigram—lifeismuchmoresuccessfullylookedatfromasinglewindow,afterall.ItwasamatterofchancethatIshouldhaverenteda
ev
houseinoneofthestrangestcommunitiesinNorthAmerica.Itwason
o
thatslenderriotousislandwhichextendsitselfdueeastofNewYork—andwherethereare,amongdiğer
othernaturalcuriosities,twounusualformationsofland.Twentymilesfromthecity
bir
apairofenormouseggs,identicalincontourve
andseparatedonlybyacourtesybay,jutoutintotheen
mostdomesticatedbodyofsaltsu
waterintheWesternhemisphere,thegreatwetbarnyardofLongIslandSound.Theyarenot
mükemmel
perfectovals—liketheeggintheColumbusstory,theyareher ikisi de
bothcrushedflatatthecontactend—buttheirphysicalresemblancemustbebir
asourceofperpetualwondertothegullsthatflyoverhead.Tothewingless
bir
amoreinterestingphenomenonistheirdissimilarityinher
everyparticularexceptshapeandsize.I
yaşadım
livedatWestEgg,the—well,thelessfashionableofthetwo,thoughbu
thisisamostsuperficialtagtoexpressthebizarreve
andnotalittlesinistercontrastbetweenthem.Myhousewasattheverytipoftheegg,
sadece
onlyfiftyyardsfromtheSound,ve
andsqueezedbetweentwohugeplacesthatrentedfortwelveya da
orfifteenthousandaseason.Theoneonmyrightwasacolossalaffairby
herhangi
anystandard—itwasafactualimitationofbazı
someHôteldeVilleinNormandy,withatowerononeside,spankingyeni
newunderathinbeardofrawivy,ve
andamarbleswimmingpool,ve
andmorethanfortyacresoflawnve
andgarden.ItwasGatsby’smansion.
Ya da
Or,rather,asIdidn’tknowMr.Gatsby,itwasbir
amansioninhabitedbyagentlemanofthatname.My
kendi
ownhousewasaneyesore,ama
butitwasasmalleyesore,ve
andithadbeenoverlooked,soIhadaviewofthesuya
water,apartialviewofmyneighbour’slawn,ve
andtheconsolingproximityofmillionaires—allforeightydollarsamonth.Acrossthecourtesybaythe
beyaz
whitepalacesoffashionableEastEggglitteredboyunca
alongthewater,andthehistoryofthesummergerçekten
reallybeginsontheeveningIdroveoveroraya
theretohavedinnerwiththeTomBuchanans.Daisywasmy
ikinci
secondcousinonceremoved,andI’dtanıyordum
knownTomincollege.Andjust
sonra
afterthewarIspentiki
twodayswiththeminChicago.Her
kocası
husband,amongvariousphysicalaccomplishments,hadbeenoneoftheen
mostpowerfulendsthateverplayedfootballatNewHaven—anationalfigureinaway,oneofthosemenwhoreachsuchanacutelimitedexcellenceattwenty-onethateverythingafterwardsavoursofanticlimax.Hisfamilywereenormouslywealthy—evenincollegehisfreedomwithmoneywas
bir
amatterforreproach—butnowhe’dayrıldı
leftChicagoandcomeEastinbir
afashionthatrathertookyourbreathaway:forinstance,he’d
getirdi
broughtdownastringofpoloponiesfromLakeForest.Itwashardtorealizethat
bir
amaninmyowngenerationwaswealthyenoughtodothat.Neden
WhytheycameEastIdon’tbilmiyorum
know.Theyhadspenta
yıl
yearinFrancefornoparticularsebep
reason,andthendriftedhereve
andthereunrestfullywhereverpeopleplayedpolove
andwererichtogether.Thiswas
bir
apermanentmove,saidDaisyoverthetelephone,ama
butIdidn’tbelieveit—IhadnosightintoDaisy’sheart,ama
butIfeltthatTomwoulddriftonforeverseeking,bir
alittlewistfully,forthedramaticturbulenceofbiraz
someirrecoverablefootballgame.Andsoit
oldu
happenedthatonawarmwindyeveningIdroveovertoEastEggtogörmek
seetwooldfriendswhomIscarcelyknewatall.TheirhousewasevenmoreelaboratethanIexpected,
bir
acheerfulred-and-whiteGeorgianColonialmansion,overlookingthebay.Thelawnstartedatthebeach
ve
andrantowardsthefrontdoorforbir
aquarterofamile,jumpingoversundialsve
andbrickwalksandburninggardens—finallywhenitreachedthehousedriftinguptheyan
sideinbrightvinesasthoughfromthemomentumofitsrun.The
ön
frontwasbrokenbyalineofFrenchwindows,glowingşimdi
nowwithreflectedgoldandwideopentothewarmwindyafternoon,ve
andTomBuchananinridingclotheswasduruyordu
standingwithhislegsapartontheön
frontporch.Hehadchanged
beri
sincehisNewHavenyears.Şimdi
Nowhewasasturdystraw-hairedmanofthirty,withbir
aratherhardmouthandbir
asuperciliousmanner.Twoshiningarroganteyeshadestablisheddominance
üzerinde
overhisfaceandgavehimtheappearanceofher zaman
alwaysleaningaggressivelyforward.Not
bile
eventheeffeminateswankofhisridingclothescouldhidetheenormousgücünü
powerofthatbody—heseemedtofillthoseglisteningbootskadar
untilhestrainedthetoplacing,ve
andyoucouldseeagreatpackofmuscleshiftingwhenhisshouldermovedaltında
underhisthincoat.Itwas
bir
abodycapableofenormousleverage—acruelvücut
body.Hisspeakingvoice,agruffhuskytenor,addedtotheimpressionoffractiousnessheconveyed.
Therewas
bir
atouchofpaternalcontemptinit,bile
eventowardpeopleheliked—andthereweremenatNewHavenwhovardı
hadhatedhisguts.“Now,don’tthinkmyopinionon
bu
thesemattersisfinal,”heseemedtodiyor
say,“justbecauseI’mstrongerve
andmoreofamanthanyouare.”Wewereinthe
aynı
sameseniorsociety,andwhilewewereneverintimateIher zaman
alwayshadtheimpressionthatheapprovedofmeve
andwantedmetolikehimwithsomeharsh,defiantwistfulnessofhisown.Wetalkedfora
birkaç
fewminutesonthesunnyporch.“I’vegot
bir
aniceplacehere,”hededi
said,hiseyesflashingaboutrestlessly.Turningmearoundbyonearm,hemovedabroadflathand
boyunca
alongthefrontvista,includinginitssweepasunkenItaliangarden,ayarım
halfacreofdeep,pungentroses,ve
andasnub-nosedmotorboatthatbumpedthetideoffshore.“ItbelongedtoDemaine,theoilman.”
He
çevirdi
turnedmearoundagain,politelyve
andabruptly.“We’llgoinside.”
Wewalkedthrough
bir
ahighhallwayintoabrightrosy-colouredspace,fragilelyboundintotheevin
housebyFrenchwindowsateitherend.Thewindowswereajar
ve
andgleamingwhiteagainstthefreshgrassoutsidethatseemedtogrowalittlewayintotheevin
house.Abreezeblewthroughtheroom,blewcurtainsinatoneend
ve
andouttheotherlikepaleflags,twistingthemuptowardthefrostedwedding-cakeoftheceiling,ve
andthenrippledoverthewine-colouredrug,makingashadowonitaswinddoesonthesea.The
tek
onlycompletelystationaryobjectintheroomwasbir
anenormouscouchonwhichiki
twoyoungwomenwerebuoyedupasthoughuponbir
ananchoredballoon.Theywerebothin
beyaz
white,andtheirdresseswereripplingve
andflutteringasiftheyhadjustbeenblowngeri
backinafterashortflightetrafında
aroundthehouse.Imusthavestoodfor
bir
afewmomentslisteningtothewhipve
andsnapofthecurtainsve
andthegroanofapictureonthewall.Thentherewas
bir
aboomasTomBuchananshuttherearwindowsve
andthecaughtwinddiedoutabouttheroom,ve
andthecurtainsandtherugsve
andthetwoyoungwomenballoonedslowlytothefloor.Theyoungerofthetwowasastrangerto
bana
me.Shewasextendedfulllengthatherendofthedivan,completelymotionless,
ve
andwithherchinraisedbir
alittle,asifshewerebalancingsomethingonitolan
whichwasquitelikelytodüşme
fall.Ifshesawmeoutofthecornerofhereyesshegave
hiçbir
nohintofit—indeed,Iwasneredeyse
almostsurprisedintomurmuringanapologyforhavingdisturbedherbycomingin.The
diğer
othergirl,Daisy,madeanattempttorise—sheleanedslightlyforwardwithaconscientiousexpression—thenshelaughed,anabsurd,charminglittlelaugh,ve
andIlaughedtooandgeldim
cameforwardintotheroom.“I’mp-paralysedwithhappiness.”
Shelaughed
yine
again,asifshesaidşey
somethingverywitty,andheldmyhandforaan
moment,lookingupintomyface,promisingbu
thattherewasnooneintheworldshesomuchwantedtogörmek
see.Thatwasawayshehad.
Shehintedinamurmurthatthesurnameofthebalancing
kızın
girlwasBaker.(I’vehearditsaidthatDaisy’smurmurwas
sadece
onlytomakepeopleleantowardona
her;anirrelevantcriticismthatmadeitnolesscharming.)
Atanyrate,
Bayan
MissBaker’slipsfluttered,shenoddedatmeneredeyse
almostimperceptibly,andthenquicklytippedherheadgeri
backagain—theobjectshewasbalancinghadobviouslytotteredbir
alittleandgivenhersomethingofbir
afright.Againasortofapologyarosetomylips.
Neredeyse
Almostanyexhibitionofcompleteself-sufficiencydrawsbir
astunnedtributefromme.I
baktım
lookedbackatmycousin,whobegantosormaya
askmequestionsinherlow,thrillingvoice.Itwasthekindofvoicethattheearfollows
yukarı
upanddown,asifher
eachspeechisanarrangementofnotesthatwillasla
neverbeplayedagain.Her
yüzü
facewassadandlovelywithbrightthingsinit,brighteyesve
andabrightpassionatemouth,ama
buttherewasanexcitementinhervoicethatmenwhovardı
hadcaredforherfounddifficulttoforget:bir
asingingcompulsion,awhispered“Listen,”bir
apromisethatshehaddonegay,excitingthingsjustbir
awhilesinceandthatthereweregay,excitingthingshoveringinthesonraki
nexthour.ItoldherhowIhadstoppedoffinChicagofor
bir
adayonmywayEast,ve
andhowadozenpeoplehadsenttheirlovethroughme.“Dothey
özlüyorlar
missme?”shecriedecstatically.
“The
bütün
wholetownisdesolate.Allthecars
var
havetheleftrearwheelpaintedsiyah
blackasamourningwreath,ve
andthere’sapersistentwailtüm
allnightalongthenorthshore.”“Howgorgeous!
Let’sgo
geri
back,Tom.Tomorrow!”
Thensheaddedirrelevantly:
“Yououghtto
görmelisin
seethebaby.”“I’dliketo.”
“She’sasleep.
She’s
üç
threeyearsold.Haven’tyouever
görmedin
seenher?”“Never.”
“Well,yououghtto
görmelisin
seeher.She’s—”.
TomBuchanan,whohadbeenhoveringrestlesslyabouttheroom,
durdu
stoppedandrestedhishandonmyshoulder.“Whatyou
yapıyorsun
doing,Nick?”“I’mabondman.”
“Whowith?”
Itold
ona
him.“Neverheardofthem,”heremarkeddecisively.
Bu
Thisannoyedme.“Youwill,”Iansweredshortly.
“Youwillifyou
kalırsan
stayintheEast.”“Oh,I’ll
kalacağım
stayintheEast,don’tyouworry,”hededi
said,glancingatDaisyandthengeri
backatme,asifhewerealertforşey
somethingmore.“I’dbeaGoddamnedfoolto
yaşamak
liveanywhereelse.”Atthispoint
Bayan
MissBakersaid:“Absolutely!”
withsuchsuddennessthatIstarted—itwasthe
ilk
firstwordshehadutteredberi
sinceIcameintotheodaya
room.Evidentlyitsurprisedherasmuchasitdid
beni
me,forsheyawnedandwithbir
aseriesofrapid,deftmovementsstoodupintotheodaya
room.“I’mstiff,”shecomplained,“I’vebeen
uzanıyorum
lyingonthatsofaforaslongasIcanremember.”“Don’tlookatme,”Daisyretorted,“I’vebeentryingtogetyoutoNewYorkallafternoon.”
“No,thanks,”
dedi
saidMissBakertothedört
fourcocktailsjustinfromthepantry.“I’mabsolutelyintraining.”
Herhost
baktı
lookedatherincredulously.“Youare!”
Hetookdownhis
içti
drinkasifitwerebir
adropinthebottomofbir
aglass.“Howyoueverget
şey
anythingdoneisbeyondme.”I
baktım
lookedatMissBaker,wonderingwhatitwasshe“gotdone.”Ienjoyedlookingat
ona
her.Shewasaslender,small-breastedgirl,
ile
withanerectcarriage,whichsheaccentuatedbythrowingherbodybackwardattheshouldersgibi
likeayoungcadet.Hergreysun-strainedeyes
baktı
lookedbackatmewithpolitereciprocalcuriosityoutofbir
awan,charming,discontentedface.Itoccurredtome
şimdi
nowthatIhadseenonu
her,orapictureofonu
her,somewherebefore.“YouliveinWestEgg,”sheremarkedcontemptuously.
“I
tanıyorum
knowsomebodythere.”“Idon’tknow
bir
asingle—”.“YoumustknowGatsby.”
“Gatsby?”
demandedDaisy.
“WhatGatsby?”
Önce
BeforeIcouldreplythathewasmyneighbourdinnerwasannounced;wedginghistensearmimperativelyunder
benim
mine,TomBuchanancompelledmefromtheroomasthoughheweretaşıyormuş
movingacheckertoanothersquare.Slenderly,languidly,theirhandssetlightlyontheirhips,the
iki
twoyoungwomenprecededusoutontobir
arosy-colouredporch,opentowardthesunset,wheredört
fourcandlesflickeredonthetableinthediminishedwind.“Whycandles?”
objectedDaisy,frowning.
Shesnappedthemoutwithherfingers.
“Intwoweeksit’llbethelongest
günü
dayintheyear.”She
baktı
lookedatusallradiantly.“Doyoualwayswatchforthelongestdayofthe
yılın
yearandthenmissit?I
her zaman
alwayswatchforthelongestdayintheyılın
yearandthenmissit.”“Weoughttoplansomething,”yawned
Bayan
MissBaker,sittingdownatthetableasifsheweregettingintobed.“Allright,”
dedi
saidDaisy.“What’llweplan?”
Sheturnedtomehelplessly:
“Whatdopeopleplan?”
Önce
BeforeIcouldanswerhereyesfastenedwithbir
anawedexpressiononherküçük
littlefinger.“Look!”
shecomplained;
“I
incittim
hurtit.”Wealllooked—theknucklewas
siyah
blackandblue.“Youdidit,Tom,”she
dedi
saidaccusingly.“Iknowyoudidn’tmeanto,
ama
butyoudiddoit.That’swhatI
alıyorum
getformarryingabruteofbir
aman,agreat,big,hulkingphysicalspecimenofa—”.“I
nefret
hatethatword‘hulking,’ ”objectedTomcrossly,“eveninkidding.”“Hulking,”insistedDaisy.
Bazen
SometimessheandMissBakertalkedatonce,unobtrusivelyve
andwithabanteringinconsequencethatwasneverquitechatter,thatwasasserin
coolastheirwhitedressesve
andtheirimpersonaleyesintheabsenceoftüm
alldesire.Theywerehere,
ve
andtheyacceptedTomandbeni
me,makingonlyapolitepleasantefforttoentertainya da
ortobeentertained.They
biliyorlardı
knewthatpresentlydinnerwouldbeoverve
andalittlelatertheeveningda
toowouldbeoverandcasuallyputaway.ItwassharplydifferentfromtheWest,whereaneveningwashurriedfromphasetophasetowardsitsclose,inacontinuallydisappointedanticipation
ya da
orelseinsheernervousdreadoftheanın
momentitself.“Youmakemefeeluncivilized,Daisy,”Iconfessedonmy
ikinci
secondglassofcorkybutratherimpressiveclaret.“Can’tyoutalk
hakkında
aboutcropsorsomething?”Imeantnothinginparticularbythisremark,
ama
butitwastakenupinbir
anunexpectedway.“Civilization’sgoingtopieces,”brokeoutTomviolently.
“I’vegottentobe
bir
aterriblepessimistaboutthings.Haveyou
okudun
readTheRiseoftheColouredEmpiresbythismanGoddard?”“Why,no,”I
yanıtladım
answered,rathersurprisedbyhistone.“Well,it’s
bir
afinebook,andeverybodyoughttoreadit.The
fikir
ideaisifwedon’tlookoutthebeyaz
whiteracewillbe—willbeutterlysubmerged.It’sallscientificstuff;
it’sbeenproved.”