I
Inmyyounger
och
andmorevulnerableyearsmyfar
fathergavemesomeadvicesom
thatI’vebeenturningoverinmysinne
mindeversince.“Wheneveryou
känner
feellikecriticizinganyone,”hesa
toldme,“justrememberthatallthemänniskor
peopleinthisworldhaven’thadtheadvantagesthatyou’vehad.”Hedidn’t
sa
sayanymore,butwe’vealltid
alwaysbeenunusuallycommunicativeinett
areservedway,andIförstod
understoodthathemeantagreatdealmer
morethanthat.Inconsequence,I’minclinedtoreserve
alla
alljudgements,ahabitthathar
hasopenedupmanycuriousnaturestomeoch
andalsomademethevictimofnoten
afewveteranbores.Theabnormalmindisquicktodetect
och
andattachitselftothisqualitynär
whenitappearsinanormalperson
person,andsoitcameaboutthatincollegeIwasunjustlyaccusedofbeingen
apolitician,becauseIwasprivytothesecretgriefsofwild,unknownmen.De flesta
Mostoftheconfidenceswereunsought—frequentlyIhar
havefeignedsleep,preoccupation,orahostilelevitynär
whenIrealizedbysomeunmistakabletecken
signthatanintimaterevelationwasquiveringonde
thehorizon;fortheintimaterevelationsof
unga
youngmen,oratleastthetermsinvilka
whichtheyexpressthem,areusuallyplagiaristicoch
andmarredbyobvioussuppressions.Reservingjudgementsis
en
amatterofinfinitehope.Iam
fortfarande
stillalittleafraidofmissa
missingsomethingifIforgetthat,asmyfar
fathersnobbishlysuggested,andIsnobbishlyrepeat,en
asenseofthefundamentaldecenciesisparcelledut
outunequallyatbirth.And,
efter
afterboastingthiswayofmytolerance,Ikommer
cometotheadmissionthatithasen
alimit.Conductmaybefoundedonthe
hårda
hardrockorthewetmarshes,men
butafteracertainpointIdon’tcarewhatit’sfoundedon.När
WhenIcamebackfromtheEastförra
lastautumnIfeltthatIville
wantedtheworldtobeinuniformoch
andatasortofmoralattentionforever;Iwanted
inte
nomoreriotousexcursionswithprivilegedglimpsesintodet
thehumanheart.OnlyGatsby,
den
themanwhogiveshisnamn
nametothisbook,wasexemptfrommyreaction—Gatsby,whorepresentedallt
everythingforwhichIhaveett
anunaffectedscorn.Ifpersonalityisanunbrokenseriesofsuccessfulgestures,thentherewas
något
somethinggorgeousabouthim,someheightenedsensitivitytothepromisesoflife,asifhewererelatedtooneofdessa
thoseintricatemachinesthatregisterearthquakestio
tenthousandmilesaway.Thisresponsivenesshad
inget
nothingtodowiththatflabbyimpressionabilitywhichisdignifiedunder
underthenameofthe“creativetemperament”—itwasanextraordinarygiftforhopp
hope,aromanticreadinesssuchasIhar
haveneverfoundinanyannan
otherpersonandwhichitisnotlikelyIshalleverhitta
findagain.No—Gatsbyturnedoutallrightattheend;
itiswhatpreyedonGatsby,whatfouldustfloatedinthe
kölvattnet
wakeofhisdreamsthattemporarilystängde
closedoutmyinterestintheabortivesorrowsoch
andshort-windedelationsofmen.My
familj
familyhavebeenprominent,well-to-domänniskor
peopleinthisMiddleWesternstad
cityforthreegenerations.TheCarrawaysare
något
somethingofaclan,andwehaveen
atraditionthatwe’redescendedfromden
theDukesofBuccleuch,butden
theactualfounderofmylinje
linewasmygrandfather’sbrother,whokom
camehereinfifty-one,senten
asubstitutetotheCivilWar,och
andstartedthewholesalehardwareverksamhet
businessthatmyfathercarriesonidag
today.Ineversawthisgreat-uncle,
men
butI’msupposedtolooklikehim—withsärskild
specialreferencetotheratherhard-boiledpaintingthathänger
hangsinfather’soffice.IgraduatedfromNewHavenin1915,
bara
justaquarterofacenturyefter
aftermyfather,andalite
littlelaterIparticipatedinthatdelayedTeutonicmigrationknownastheStora
GreatWar.Ienjoyedthecounter-raidsothoroughly
att
thatIcamebackrestless.Insteadofbeing
den
thewarmcentreoftheworld,den
theMiddleWestnowseemedsom
liketheraggededgeofden
theuniverse—soIdecidedtoåka
goEastandlearnthebondbusiness.Alla
EverybodyIknewwasinthebondbusiness,soIsupposeditcouldsupportonemoresingleman.Alla
Allmyauntsandunclespratade
talkeditoverasiftheywerechoosingen
aprepschoolforme,och
andfinallysaid,“Why—ye-es,”withmycket
verygrave,hesitantfaces.Fatheragreedtofinancemefor
ett
ayear,andaftervariousdelaysIkom
cameEast,permanently,Ithought,inthespringoftwenty-two.Thepracticalthingwasto
hitta
findroomsinthecity,men
butitwasawarmseason,och
andIhadjustleftaland
countryofwidelawnsandfriendlytrees,sonär
whenayoungmanattheofficesuggestedthatwetog
takeahousetogetherinacommutingtown,itsoundedlikeabra
greatidea.Hefoundthe
huset
house,aweather-beatencardboardbungalowateightyen
amonth,butatthesista
lastminutethefirmorderedhimtoWashington,och
andIwentouttothecountryensam
alone.Ihadadog—atleastI
hade
hadhimforafewdaystills
untilheranaway—andangammal
oldDodgeandaFinnishkvinna
woman,whomademybedoch
andcookedbreakfastandmutteredFinnishwisdomtoherselföver
overtheelectricstove.Itwaslonelyfora
dag
dayorsountilonemorgon
morningsomeman,morerecentlyarrivedän
thanI,stoppedmeontheroad.“Howdoyou
kommer
gettoWestEggvillage?”he
frågade
askedhelplessly.Itoldhim.
Och
AndasIwalkedonIwaslonelyinte
nolonger.Iwasaguide,apathfinder,anoriginalsettler.
He
hade
hadcasuallyconferredonmethefreedomoftheneighbourhood.Och
Andsowiththesunshineoch
andthegreatburstsofleavesgrowingonthetrees,precis
justasthingsgrowinfastmovies,Ihade
hadthatfamiliarconvictionthatlifewasbeginningoveragainmed
withthesummer.Therewasso
mycket
muchtoread,foronething,och
andsomuchfinehealthtobepulledner
downoutoftheyoungbreath-givingair.I
köpte
boughtadozenvolumesonbankingoch
andcreditandinvestmentsecurities,och
andtheystoodonmyshelfinrött
redandgoldlikenewpengar
moneyfromthemint,promisingtounfoldtheshiningsecretsthatbara
onlyMidasandMorganandMaecenaskände
knew.AndIhadthe
höga
highintentionofreadingmanyandra
otherbooksbesides.Iwasratherliteraryincollege—one
år
yearIwroteaseriesofmycket
verysolemnandobviouseditorialsforden
theYaleNews—andnowIwasgoingtota
bringbackallsuchthingsintomyliv
lifeandbecomeagainthatmest
mostlimitedofallspecialists,den
the“well-roundedman.”Thisisn’t
bara
justanepigram—lifeismuchmer
moresuccessfullylookedatfromasinglewindow,afterallt
all.Itwasamatterof
slump
chancethatIshouldhaverentedahus
houseinoneofthestrangestcommunitiesinNorthAmerica.ItwasonthatslenderriotousislandwhichextendsitselfdueeastofNewYork—andwherethere
finns
are,amongothernaturalcuriosities,två
twounusualformationsofland.Twentymilesfrom
den
thecityapairofenormouseggs,identicalincontouroch
andseparatedonlybyacourtesybay,jutut
outintothemostdomesticatedbodyofsaltwaterinden
theWesternhemisphere,thegreatwetbarnyardofLongIslandSound.Theyarenotperfectovals—liketheeggintheColumbus
berättelse
story,theyarebothcrushedflatatthecontactend—buttheirphysicalresemblancemåste
mustbeasourceofperpetualwondertothegullssom
thatflyoverhead.Tothewingless
ett
amoreinterestingphenomenonistheirdissimilarityinvarje
everyparticularexceptshapeandsize.I
bodde
livedatWestEgg,the—well,thelessfashionableofthetvå
two,thoughthisisamest
mostsuperficialtagtoexpressthebizarreoch
andnotalittlesinistercontrastmellan
betweenthem.Myhousewasattheverytipoftheegg,
bara
onlyfiftyyardsfromtheSound,och
andsqueezedbetweentwohugeplacessom
thatrentedfortwelveorfifteenthousandaseason.Theoneonmy
högra
rightwasacolossalaffairbyanystandard—itwasafactualimitationofsomeHôteldeVilleinNormandy,med
withatowerononeside,spankingny
newunderathinbeardofrawivy,och
andamarbleswimmingpool,och
andmorethanfortyacresoflawnoch
andgarden.ItwasGatsby’smansion.
Eller
Or,rather,asIdidn’tkände
knowMr.Gatsby,itwasen
amansioninhabitedbyagentlemanofthatnamnet
name.Myownhousewasaneyesore,
men
butitwasasmalleyesore,och
andithadbeenoverlooked,soIhade
hadaviewofthevattnet
water,apartialviewofmyneighbour’slawn,och
andtheconsolingproximityofmillionaires—allforeightydollarsamonth.Acrossthecourtesybaythe
vita
whitepalacesoffashionableEastEggglitteredlängs
alongthewater,andthehistoryofthesummerverkligen
reallybeginsontheeveningIkörde
droveovertheretohavemiddag
dinnerwiththeTomBuchanans.Daisywasmy
andra
secondcousinonceremoved,andI’dkänt
knownTomincollege.And
strax
justafterthewarIspenttvå
twodayswiththeminChicago.Herhusband,amongvariousphysicalaccomplishments,
hade
hadbeenoneofthemostpowerfulendsthateverspelat
playedfootballatNewHaven—anationalfigureinasätt
way,oneofthosemenwhoreachsuchanacutelimitedexcellenceattwenty-onethatallt
everythingafterwardsavoursofanticlimax.His
familj
familywereenormouslywealthy—evenincollegehisfreedommed
withmoneywasamatterforreproach—butnu
nowhe’dleftChicagoandkommit
comeEastinafashionsom
thatrathertookyourbreathaway:forinstance,he’d
tagit
broughtdownastringofpoloponiesfromLakeForest.Itwas
svårt
hardtorealizethataman
maninmyowngenerationwaswealthynog
enoughtodothat.Whythey
kom
cameEastIdon’tknow.They
hade
hadspentayearinFrancefornoparticularanledning
reason,andthendriftedhereoch
andthereunrestfullywhereverpeoplespelade
playedpoloandwererichtillsammans
together.Thiswasapermanentmove,
sa
saidDaisyoverthetelephone,men
butIdidn’tbelieveit—Ihade
hadnosightintoDaisy’shjärta
heart,butIfeltthatTomwoulddriftonforeverseeking,en
alittlewistfully,forthedramaticturbulenceofsomeirrecoverablefootballgame.Och
Andsoithappenedthatonen
awarmwindyeveningIkörde
droveovertoEastEggtoseetvå
twooldfriendswhomIscarcelykände
knewatall.Theirhousewas
ännu
evenmoreelaboratethanIexpected,en
acheerfulred-and-whiteGeorgianColonialmansion,overlookingthebay.Thelawn
började
startedatthebeachandsprang
rantowardsthefrontdoorforen
aquarterofamile,jumpingöver
oversundialsandbrickwalksoch
andburninggardens—finallywhenitreachedthehuset
housedriftingupthesideinbrightvinesasthoughfromthemomentumofitssprang
run.Thefrontwasbrokenby
en
alineofFrenchwindows,glowingnu
nowwithreflectedgoldandwideopentoden
thewarmwindyafternoon,andTomBuchananinridingclotheswasstod
standingwithhislegsapartonden
thefrontporch.Hehad
förändrats
changedsincehisNewHavenyears.Nu
Nowhewasasturdystraw-hairedman
manofthirty,witharatherhård
hardmouthandasuperciliousmanner.Två
Twoshiningarroganteyeshadestablisheddominanceöver
overhisfaceandgavehimtheappearanceofalltid
alwaysleaningaggressivelyforward.Not
ens
eventheeffeminateswankofhisridingclotheskunde
couldhidetheenormouspowerofthatbody—heseemedtofilldessa
thoseglisteningbootsuntilhestrainedden
thetoplacing,andyoukunde
couldseeagreatpackofmuscleshiftingnär
whenhisshouldermovedunderhisthincoat.Itwas
en
abodycapableofenormousleverage—acruelkropp
body.Hisspeakingvoice,agruffhuskytenor,addedtotheimpressionoffractiousnessheconveyed.
Therewas
en
atouchofpaternalcontemptinit,eventowardmänniskor
peopleheliked—andthereweremenatNewHavensom
whohadhatedhisguts.“Now,don’tthinkmyopinionon
dessa
thesemattersisfinal,”heseemedtosäga
say,“justbecauseI’mstrongeroch
andmoreofamanän
thanyouare.”Wewereinthe
samma
sameseniorsociety,andwhilewewerealdrig
neverintimateIalwayshadtheimpressionthatheapprovedofmeoch
andwantedmetolikehimmed
withsomeharsh,defiantwistfulnessofhisegen
own.Wetalkedfora
några
fewminutesonthesunnyporch.“I’vegot
ett
aniceplacehere,”hesa
said,hiseyesflashingaboutrestlessly.Vände
Turningmearoundbyonearm,heflyttade
movedabroadflathandlängs
alongthefrontvista,includinginitssweepasunkenItaliangarden,ahalv
halfacreofdeep,pungentroses,och
andasnub-nosedmotorboatthatbumpedden
thetideoffshore.“ItbelongedtoDemaine,theoilman.”
He
vände
turnedmearoundagain,politelyoch
andabruptly.“We’llgoinside.”
We
gick
walkedthroughahighhallwayintoabrightrosy-colouredspace,fragilelyboundintothehuset
housebyFrenchwindowsateitheränden
end.Thewindowswereajar
och
andgleamingwhiteagainstthefreshgrassutanför
outsidethatseemedtogrowalite
littlewayintothehouse.Abreezeblew
genom
throughtheroom,blewcurtainsinatoneänden
endandouttheotherlikepaleflags,twistingthemupp
uptowardthefrostedwedding-cakeoftheceiling,och
andthenrippledoverthewine-colouredrug,gör
makingashadowonitaswindgör
doesonthesea.The
enda
onlycompletelystationaryobjectindet
theroomwasanenormouscouchonwhichtvå
twoyoungwomenwerebuoyedupasthoughuponen
ananchoredballoon.Theywere
båda
bothinwhite,andtheirdresseswereripplingoch
andflutteringasiftheyhade
hadjustbeenblownbackinefter
afterashortflightaroundthehuset
house.Imusthavestoodfor
en
afewmomentslisteningtothewhipoch
andsnapofthecurtainsoch
andthegroanofapictureonthewall.Thentherewas
ett
aboomasTomBuchananstängde
shuttherearwindowsandthefångade
caughtwinddiedoutabouttherummet
room,andthecurtainsandtherugsoch
andthetwoyoungwomenballoonedslowlytothefloor.Theyoungerofthe
två
twowasastrangertomig
me.Shewasextendedfulllengthatherendofthedivan,completelymotionless,
och
andwithherchinraisedalite
little,asifshewerebalancingnågot
somethingonitwhichwasquitelikelytofalla
fall.Ifshesawmeoutof
det
thecornerofhereyesshegav
gavenohintofit—indeed,Iwasnästan
almostsurprisedintomurmuringanapologyforha
havingdisturbedherbycomingin.Den
Theothergirl,Daisy,madeanattempttorise—sheleanedslightlyforwardmed
withaconscientiousexpression—thenshelaughed,anabsurd,charminglittlelaugh,och
andIlaughedtooandkom
cameforwardintotheroom.“I’mp-paralysedwithhappiness.”
Shelaughed
igen
again,asifshesaidnågot
somethingverywitty,andheldmyhand
handforamoment,lookingupp
upintomyface,promisingthattherewasinte
nooneintheworldshesomuchville
wantedtosee.Thatwas
ett
awayshehad.Shehintedin
ett
amurmurthatthesurnameofden
thebalancinggirlwasBaker.(I’ve
hört
hearditsaidthatDaisy’smurmurwasbara
onlytomakepeopleleantowardhenne
her;anirrelevantcriticismthat
gjorde
madeitnolesscharming.)Atanyrate,
Fröken
MissBaker’slipsfluttered,shenoddedatmenästan
almostimperceptibly,andthenquicklytippedherheadtillbaka
backagain—theobjectshewasbalancinghade
hadobviouslytotteredalittleoch
andgivenhersomethingofen
afright.Againasortofapologyarosetomylips.
Nästan
Almostanyexhibitionofcompleteself-sufficiencydrawsen
astunnedtributefromme.I
tittade
lookedbackatmycousin,som
whobegantoaskmequestionsinherlow,thrillingvoice.Itwasthe
typ
kindofvoicethattheearföljer
followsupanddown,asom
ifeachspeechisanarrangementofnotesthatkommer
willneverbeplayedagain.Her
ansikte
facewassadandlovelymed
withbrightthingsinit,brighteyesoch
andabrightpassionatemouth,men
buttherewasanexcitementinhervoicethatmenwhohade
hadcaredforherfounddifficulttoglömma
forget:asingingcompulsion,awhispered“Listen,”a
löfte
promisethatshehaddonegay,excitingthingsjustatag
whilesinceandthatthereweregay,excitingthingshoveringinthenästa
nexthour.Itoldher
hur
howIhadstoppedoffinChicagoforadag
dayonmywayEast,och
andhowadozenpeoplehade
hadsenttheirlovethroughmig
me.“Dotheymissme?”
shecriedecstatically.
“The
hela
wholetownisdesolate.All
det
thecarshavetheleftrearwheelpaintedsvart
blackasamourningwreath,och
andthere’sapersistentwailalla
allnightalongthenorthshore.”“Howgorgeous!
Let’s
åker
goback,Tom.Tomorrow!”
Thensheaddedirrelevantly:
“Yououghtto
se
seethebaby.”“I’dliketo.”
“She’sasleep.
She’s
tre
threeyearsold.Haven’tyouever
sett
seenher?”“Never.”
“Well,yououghttosee
henne
her.She’s—”.
TomBuchanan,who
hade
hadbeenhoveringrestlesslyabouttherummet
room,stoppedandrestedhishand
handonmyshoulder.“Whatyou
gör
doing,Nick?”“I’mabondman.”
“Whowith?”
I
sa
toldhim.“Neverheardofthem,”heremarkeddecisively.
Här
Thisannoyedme.“Youwill,”I
svarade
answeredshortly.“Youwillifyou
stannar
stayintheEast.”“Oh,I’ll
stannar
stayintheEast,don’tyouworry,”hesa
said,glancingatDaisyandthentillbaka
backatme,asifhewerealertfornågot
somethingmore.“I’dbeaGoddamnedfoolto
bodde
liveanywhereelse.”Atthispoint
Fröken
MissBakersaid:“Absolutely!”
with
sådan
suchsuddennessthatIstarted—itwasdet
thefirstwordshehadutteredsedan
sinceIcameintotherummet
room.Evidentlyitsurprisedheras
mycket
muchasitdidme,forsheyawnedoch
andwithaseriesofrapid,deftmovementsstod
stoodupintotheroom.“I’mstiff,”shecomplained,“I’vebeen
legat
lyingonthatsofaforaslänge
longasIcanremember.”“Don’tlookatme,”Daisyretorted,“I’vebeen
försökt
tryingtogetyoutoNewYorkallafternoon.”“No,thanks,”
sa
saidMissBakertothefyra
fourcocktailsjustinfromde
thepantry.“I’mabsolutelyintraining.”
Herhost
tittade
lookedatherincredulously.“Youare!”
He
tog
tookdownhisdrinkasom
ifitwereadropinthebottomofaglass.“Howyouever
får
getanythingdoneisbeyondme.”I
tittade
lookedatMissBaker,wonderingwhatitwasshe“gotdone.”Ienjoyed
titta
lookingather.Shewasaslender,small-breasted
flicka
girl,withanerectcarriage,whichsheaccentuatedbythrowingherkropp
bodybackwardattheshoulderslikeaung
youngcadet.Hergreysun-strainedeyes
tittade
lookedbackatmewithpolitereciprocalcuriosityoutofen
awan,charming,discontentedface.Itoccurredtome
nu
nowthatIhadseenhenne
her,orapictureofhenne
her,somewherebefore.“YouliveinWestEgg,”sheremarkedcontemptuously.
“I
känner
knowsomebodythere.”“Idon’t
känner
knowasingle—”.“Youmust
känna
knowGatsby.”“Gatsby?”
demandedDaisy.
“WhatGatsby?”
Innan
BeforeIcouldreplythathewasmyneighbourdinnerwasannounced;wedginghistensearmimperativelyundermine,TomBuchanancompelledmefromthe
rummet
roomasthoughhewereflyttade
movingacheckertoanothersquare.Slenderly,languidly,theirhandssetlightlyontheirhips,the
två
twoyoungwomenprecededusut
outontoarosy-colouredporch,öppen
opentowardthesunset,wherefyra
fourcandlesflickeredonthetableinthediminishedwind.“Whycandles?”
objectedDaisy,frowning.
Shesnappedthem
ut
outwithherfingers.“In
två
twoweeksit’llbethelongestdag
dayintheyear.”She
tittade
lookedatusallradiantly.“Doyou
alltid
alwayswatchforthelongestdag
dayoftheyearandthenmissar
missit?Ialwayswatchforthelongest
dagen
dayintheyearandthenmissar
missit.”“Weoughtto
planera
plansomething,”yawnedMissBaker,sitter
sittingdownatthetableasom
ifsheweregettingintosängen
bed.“Allright,”saidDaisy.
“What’llweplan?”
She
vände
turnedtomehelplessly:“Whatdopeopleplan?”
Innan
BeforeIcouldanswerhereyesfastenedmed
withanawedexpressiononherlilla
littlefinger.“Look!”
shecomplained;
“I
skadade
hurtit.”Wealllooked—theknucklewas
svart
blackandblue.“Youdid
det
it,Tom,”shesaidaccusingly.“I
vet
knowyoudidn’tmeanto,men
butyoudiddoit.That’swhatI
får
getformarryingabruteofen
aman,agreat,big,hulkingphysicalspecimenofa—”.“I
hatar
hatethatword‘hulking,’ ”objectedTomcrossly,“eveninkidding.”“Hulking,”insistedDaisy.
Ibland
SometimessheandMissBakerpratade
talkedatonce,unobtrusivelyandmed
withabanteringinconsequencethatwasaldrig
neverquitechatter,thatwasascoolastheirvita
whitedressesandtheirimpersonaleyesintheabsenceofalldesire.Theywere
här
here,andtheyacceptedTomoch
andme,makingonlyapolitepleasantefforttoentertaineller
ortobeentertained.They
visste
knewthatpresentlydinnerwouldbeöver
overandalittlelatertheeveningockså
toowouldbeoverandcasuallyputundan
away.ItwassharplydifferentfromtheWest,whereaneveningwashurriedfromphasetophasetowardsitsclose,inacontinuallydisappointedanticipation
eller
orelseinsheernervousdreadofthemomentitself.“Youmakeme
känna
feeluncivilized,Daisy,”Iconfessedonmyandra
secondglassofcorkybutratherimpressiveclaret.“Can’tyou
prata
talkaboutcropsorsomething?”I
menade
meantnothinginparticularbydenna
thisremark,butitwastakenupp
upinanunexpectedway.“Civilization’s
går
goingtopieces,”brokeoutTomviolently.“I’vegottentobe
en
aterriblepessimistaboutthings.Har
HaveyoureadTheRiseofden
theColouredEmpiresbythismannen
manGoddard?”“Why,no,”I
svarade
answered,rathersurprisedbyhistone.“Well,it’s
en
afinebook,andeverybodyoughttoläsa
readit.Theideais
om
ifwedon’tlookoutden
thewhiteracewillbe—willbeutterlysubmerged.It’sallscientific
saker
stuff;it’sbeenproved.”