THESISTERS
Therewasno
hopp
hopeforhimthistime:itwasthethirdstroke.
Natt
NightafternightIhadpassedthehuset
house(itwasvacationtime)och
andstudiedthelightedsquareofwindow:och
andnightafternightIhade
hadfounditlightedinthesamma
sameway,faintlyandevenly.Ifhewas
död
dead,Ithought,Iwouldse
seethereflectionofcandlesonden
thedarkenedblindforIvisste
knewthattwocandlesmustbesetatden
theheadofacorpse.He
hade
hadoftensaidtome:“Iamnot
länge
longforthisworld,”andIhade
hadthoughthiswordsidle.Nu
NowIknewtheyweresanna
true.EverynightasIgazed
upp
upatthewindowIsa
saidsoftlytomyselftheordet
wordparalysis.Ithadalwayssoundedstrangelyinmyears,
som
likethewordgnomonintheEuclidoch
andthewordsimonyintheCatechism.Men
Butnowitsoundedtomesom
likethenameofsomemaleficentoch
andsinfulbeing.Itfilledme
med
withfear,andyetIlongedtobenearertoitoch
andtolookuponitsdeadlyverk
work.OldCotterwassittingatthe
elden
fire,smoking,whenIcamedownstairstosupper.Medan
Whilemyauntwasladlingut
outmystirabouthesaid,asom
ifreturningtosomeformerremarkofhans
his:.“No,Iwouldn’tsayhewas
exakt
exactly...buttherewas
något
somethingqueer...therewas
något
somethinguncannyabouthim.I’ll
berätta
tellyoumyopinion....”Hebegantopuffathispipe,nodoubtarranginghisopinioninhis
sinne
mind.Tiresomeoldfool!
Whenwe
kände
knewhimfirstheusedtoberatherinteresting,prata
talkingoffaintsandworms;men
butIsoongrewtiredofhimoch
andhisendlessstoriesaboutthedistillery.“I
har
havemyowntheoryaboutit,”hesa
said.“Ithinkitwas
en
oneofthose...peculiarcases....
Men
Butit’shardtosay....”Hebegantopuff
igen
againathispipewithoutge
givingushistheory.My
farbror
unclesawmestaringandsa
saidtome:.“Well,soyour
gamla
oldfriendisgone,you’llbeledsen
sorrytohear.”“Who?”
said
Jag
I.“FatherFlynn.”
“Ishedead?”
“MrCotter
här
herehasjusttoldus.Hewaspassingbythehouse.”
I
visste
knewthatIwasunderobservationsoIcontinuedäta
eatingasifthenewshade
hadnotinterestedme.My
farbror
uncleexplainedtooldCotter.“Theyoungster
och
andheweregreatfriends.Den
Theoldchaptaughthimen
agreatdeal,mindyou;och
andtheysayhehaden
agreatwishforhim.”“God
ha
havemercyonhissoul,”sa
saidmyauntpiously.OldCotter
tittade
lookedatmeforatag
while.Ifeltthathis
små
littlebeadyblackeyeswereexaminingmemen
butIwouldnotsatisfyhimbytitta
lookingupfrommyplate.He
återvände
returnedtohispipeandfinallyspatrudelyintothegrate.“Iwouldn’tlike
barn
childrenofmine,”hesaid,“toha
havetoomuchtosaytoen
amanlikethat.”“Howdoyou
menar
mean,MrCotter?”askedmyaunt.
“WhatI
menar
meanis,”saidoldCotter,“it’sbadforchildren.My
idé
ideais:letayounglad
springa
runaboutandplaywithyoungladsofhisegen
ownageandnotbe....AmI
rätt
right,Jack?”“That’smyprinciple,too,”
sa
saidmyuncle.“Lethim
lära sig
learntoboxhiscorner.That’swhatI’m
alltid
alwayssayingtothatRosicrucianthere:takeexercise.
Why,
när
whenIwasanippereverymorgon
morningofmylifeIhadett
acoldbath,winterandsummer.Och
Andthat’swhatstandstomenu
now.Educationisallvery
fint
fineandlarge....MrCotter
kanske
mighttakeapickofthatlegmutton,”headdedtomyaunt.“No,no,notforme,”
sa
saidoldCotter.Myaunt
tog
broughtthedishfromthesafeoch
andputitonthetable.“But
varför
whydoyouthinkit’snotbra
goodforchildren,MrCotter?”she
frågade
asked.“It’sbadforchildren,”
sa
saidoldCotter,“becausetheirmindsaresoimpressionable.När
Whenchildrenseethingslikethat,youvet
know,ithasaneffect....”Icrammedmymouth
med
withstiraboutforfearIkunna
mightgiveutterancetomyanger.Tiresome
gammal
oldred-nosedimbecile!Itwas
sent
latewhenIfellasleep.ThoughIwasangrywith
gamla
oldCotterforalludingtomeasabarn
child,Ipuzzledmyheadtoextractmeaningfromhisunfinishedsentences.In
den
thedarkofmyroomIimaginedatt
thatIsawagaintheheavygreyansikte
faceoftheparalytic.Idrewtheblankets
över
overmyheadandtriedtotänka
thinkofChristmas.Butthegreyface
fortfarande
stillfollowedme.Itmurmured;
och
andIunderstoodthatitdesiredtoconfessnågot
something.Ifeltmysoulrecedingintosomepleasant
och
andviciousregion;andthere
återigen
againIfounditwaitingformig
me.Itbegantoconfesstomein
en
amurmuringvoiceandIwonderedvarför
whyitsmiledcontinuallyandvarför
whythelipsweresomoistmed
withspittle.ButthenIrememberedthatit
hade
haddiedofparalysisandIkände
feltthatItoowassmilingfeeblyasom
iftoabsolvethesimoniacofhissin.Det
ThenextmorningafterbreakfastIgick
wentdowntolookatdet
thelittlehouseinGreatBritainStreet
Street.Itwasanunassumingshop,registered
under
underthevaguenameofDrapery.Thedraperyconsistedmainlyofchildren’sbootees
och
andumbrellas;andonordinarydays
en
anoticeusedtohanginthewindow,saying:UmbrellasRe-covered.
Ingen
Nonoticewasvisiblenowfortheshutterswereupp
up.Acrapebouquetwastiedtothedoor-knocker
med
withribbon.Twopoorwomen
och
andatelegramboywereläste
readingthecardpinnedonthecrape.I
också
alsoapproachedandread:.July1st,1895TheRev.JamesFlynn(formerlyofS.Catherine’sChurch,MeathStreet),agedsixty-fiveyears.R.I.P.
The
läste
readingofthecardpersuadedmethathewasdöd
deadandIwasdisturbedtofindmyselfatnär
check.Hadhenotbeen
död
deadIwouldhavegoneintodet
thelittledarkroombehinddet
theshoptofindhimsittinginhisarm-chairbydet
thefire,nearlysmotheredinhisgreat-coat.Kanske
Perhapsmyauntwouldhavegett
givenmeapacketofHighToastforhimoch
andthispresentwouldhaverousedhimfromhisstupefieddoze.Itwas
alltid
alwaysIwhoemptiedthepacketintohisblacksnuff-boxforhishandstrembledtoomycket
muchtoallowhimtogöra
dothiswithoutspillinghalfthesnuffaboutthefloor.Även
Evenasheraisedhislargetremblinghand
handtohisnoselittlecloudsofsmokedribbledgenom
throughhisfingersovertheframsidan
frontofhiscoat.It
kan
mayhavebeentheseconstantshowersofsnuffwhichgav
gavehisancientpriestlygarmentstheirgreenfadedutseende
lookfortheredhandkerchief,blackened,asitalltid
alwayswas,withthesnuff-stainsofen
aweek,withwhichheförsökte
triedtobrushawaythefallengrains,wasganska
quiteinefficacious.Iwishedto
gå
goinandlookathimmen
butIhadnotthecouragetoknock.I
gick
walkedawayslowlyalongthesunnysidan
sideofthestreet,readingalla
allthetheatricaladvertisementsinden
theshop-windowsasIwent.IfounditstrangethatneitherInorthe
dagen
dayseemedinamourningmoodoch
andIfeltevenannoyedatdiscoveringinmyselfasensationoffreedomasom
ifIhadbeenfreedfromnågot
somethingbyhisdeath.Iwonderedat
detta
thisfor,asmyunclehade
hadsaidthenightbefore,hehade
hadtaughtmeagreatdeal.He
hade
hadstudiedintheIrishcollegeinRomeoch
andhehadtaughtmetopronounceLatinproperly.He
hade
hadtoldmestoriesaboutde
thecatacombsandaboutNapoleonBonaparte,och
andhehadexplainedtomede
themeaningofthedifferentceremoniesofde
theMassandoftheolika
differentvestmentswornbythepriest.Ibland
Sometimeshehadamusedhimselfbyputtingdifficultquestionstomig
me,askingmewhatonebör
shoulddoincertaincircumstanceseller
orwhethersuchandsuchsinsweremortaleller
orvenialoronlyimperfections.Hisquestions
visade
showedmehowcomplexandmysteriouswerecertaininstitutionsofde
theChurchwhichIhadalltid
alwaysregardedasthesimplestacts.ThedutiesofthepriesttowardstheEucharist
och
andtowardsthesecrecyoftheconfessionalseemedsogravetomethatIwonderedhur
howanybodyhadeverfoundinhimselfthecouragetoundertakedem
them;andIwasnotsurprised
när
whenhetoldmethatthefathersoftheChurchhade
hadwrittenbooksasthickasthePostOffice
OfficeDirectoryandascloselyprintedasthelagen
lawnoticesinthenewspaper,elucidatingalla
alltheseintricatequestions.Often
när
whenIthoughtofthisIkunde
couldmakenoanswerorbara
onlyaveryfoolishandhaltingoneuponsom
whichheusedtosmileoch
andnodhisheadtwiceeller
orthrice.Sometimesheusedtoputmethrough
de
theresponsesoftheMasssom
whichhehadmademelära
learnbyheart;and,asIpattered,he
brukade
usedtosmilepensivelyandnodhishead,nu
nowandthenpushinghugepinchesofsnuffupp
upeachnostrilalternately.Whenhesmiledhe
brukade
usedtouncoverhisbigdiscolouredteethoch
andlethistonguelieuponhislowerlip—ahabitsom
whichhadmademefeeluneasyinthebeginningofouracquaintanceinnan
beforeIknewhimwell.AsI
gick
walkedalonginthesunIrememberedgamla
oldCotter’swordsandtriedtorememberwhathade
hadhappenedafterwardsinthedrömmen
dream.IrememberedthatI
hade
hadnoticedlongvelvetcurtainsoch
andaswinginglampofantiquefashion.I
kände
feltthatIhadbeenmycket
veryfaraway,insomelandwherethecustomswerestrange—inPersia,Itänkte
thought....ButIcouldnotrememberthe
slutet
endofthedream.Intheeveningmyaunt
tog
tookmewithhertovisitthehus
houseofmourning.Itwas
efter
aftersunset;butthewindow-panesof
det
thehousesthatlookedtodet
thewestreflectedthetawnygoldofen
agreatbankofclouds.Nanniereceivedusinthehall;
och
and,asitwouldhavebeenunseemlytoha
haveshoutedather,myauntshookhandsmed
withherforall.The
gamla
oldwomanpointedupwardsinterrogativelyoch
and,onmyaunt’snodding,proceededtotoilupp
upthenarrowstaircasebeforeoss
us,herbowedheadbeingscarcelyaboveden
thelevelofthebanister-rail.Atthe
första
firstlandingshestoppedandbeckonedusforwardencouraginglytowardstheöppna
opendoorofthedead-room.Myauntwentin
och
andtheoldwoman,seeingthatIhesitatedtoenter,begantobeckontomeigen
againrepeatedlywithherhand.I
gick
wentinontiptoe.The
rummet
roomthroughthelaceendofden
theblindwassuffusedwithduskygoldenljus
lightamidwhichthecandlessåg
lookedlikepalethinflames.He
hade
hadbeencoffined.Nanniegavethelead
och
andwethreekneltdownatthefootofthesängen
bed.Ipretendedtopray
men
butIcouldnotgathermythoughtseftersom
becausetheoldwoman’smutteringsdistractedmig
me.Inoticedhowclumsilyherskirtwashookedatthe
baksidan
backandhowtheheelsofherclothbootsweretroddenner
downalltooneside.Den
Thefancycametomethatden
theoldpriestwassmilingashelåg
laythereinhiscoffin.Men
Butno.Whenweroseoch
andwentuptothehuvud
headofthebedIsåg
sawthathewasnotsmiling.Där
Therehelay,solemnandcopious,vestedasforthealtar,hislargehandslooselyretainingen
achalice.Hisfacewas
mycket
verytruculent,greyandmassive,med
withblackcavernousnostrilsandcircledbyen
ascantywhitefur.Therewasaheavyodourintheroom—theflowers.
Weblessedourselves
och
andcameaway.Inthe
lilla
littleroomdownstairswefoundElizaseatedinhisarm-chairinstate.Igropedmywaytowardsmyusualchairinthecorner
medan
whileNanniewenttothesideboardoch
andbroughtoutadecanterofsherryoch
andsomewine-glasses.Sheset
dessa
theseonthetableandinvitedustota
takealittleglassofwine.Then,athersister’sbidding,shefilled
ut
outthesherryintotheglassesoch
andpassedthemtous.Shepressedmeto
ta
takesomecreamcrackersalsomen
butIdeclinedbecauseItrodde
thoughtIwouldmaketoomycket
muchnoiseeatingthem.Sheseemedtobesomewhatdisappointedatmyrefusal
och
andwentoverquietlytothesofadär
whereshesatdownbehindhersyster
sister.Noonespoke:
we
alla
allgazedattheemptyfireplace.Myaunt
väntade
waiteduntilElizasighedandthensa
said:.“Ah,well,he’sgoneto
en
abetterworld.”Elizasighed
igen
againandbowedherheadinassent.Myauntfingeredthestemofherwine-glass
innan
beforesippingalittle.“Didhe...
peacefully?”
she
frågade
asked.“Oh,quitepeacefully,ma’am,”
sa
saidEliza.“Youcouldn’ttell
när
whenthebreathwentoutofhonom
him.Hehadabeautiful
död
death,Godbepraised.”“Andeverything...?”
“FatherO’Rourkewasinwithhim
en
aTuesdayandanointedhimoch
andpreparedhimandall.”“He
visste
knewthen?”“Hewasquiteresigned.”
“He
ser
looksquiteresigned,”saidmyaunt.“That’swhat
det
thewomanwehadintowashhimsa
said.Shesaidhejust
såg
lookedasifhewasasleep,hesåg
lookedthatpeacefulandresigned.Ingen
Noonewouldthinkhe’dmakesuchabeautifulcorpse.”“Yes,indeed,”
sa
saidmyaunt.Shesippeda
lite
littlemorefromherglassoch
andsaid:.“Well,MissFlynn,atanyrateit
måste
mustbeagreatcomfortforyoutoveta
knowthatyoudidallyoukunde
couldforhim.Youwere
båda
bothverykindtohim,Imåste
mustsay.”Elizasmoothedherdress
över
overherknees.“Ah,poorJames!”
she
sa
said.“Godknowswedoneallwe
kunde
could,aspoorasweare—wewouldn’tse
seehimwantanythingwhilehewasinit.”Nannie
hade
hadleanedherheadagainstthesofa-pillowoch
andseemedabouttofallasleep.“There’s
stackars
poorNannie,”saidEliza,lookingathenne
her,“she’sworeout.Allthe
arbete
workwehad,sheandme,få
gettinginthewomantowashhimoch
andthenlayinghimoutoch
andthenthecoffinandthenarrangingom
abouttheMassinthechapel.Bara
OnlyforFatherO’RourkeIdon’tvet
knowwhatwe’dhavedoneatall.Itwashimbroughtus
alla
allthemflowersandthemtvå
twocandlesticksoutofthechapeloch
andwroteoutthenoticefortheFreeman’sGeneraloch
andtookchargeofallthepapersforthecemeteryoch
andpoorJames’sinsurance.”“Wasn’tthatgoodofhim?”
sa
saidmyaunt.Elizaclosedhereyes
och
andshookherheadslowly.“Ah,there’s
inga
nofriendsliketheoldfriends,”shesaid,“whenallt
allissaidanddone,inga
nofriendsthatabodykan
cantrust.”“Indeed,that’strue,”
sa
saidmyaunt.“AndI’m
säker
surenowthathe’sgonetohiseternalrewardhewon’tglömma
forgetyouandallyourkindnesstohim.”“Ah,
stackars
poorJames!”saidEliza.
“Hewas
inte
nogreattroubletous.Youwouldn’t
höra
hearhiminthehouseanymer
morethannow.Still,I
vet
knowhe’sgoneandalltothat....”“It’s
när
whenit’salloverthatyou’llsakna
misshim,”saidmyaunt.“I
vet
knowthat,”saidEliza.“Iwon’tbe
ta
bringinghiminhiscupofbeef-teaanymore,noryou,ma’am,skicka
sendinghimhissnuff.Ah,
stackars
poorJames!”Shestopped,as
om
ifshewerecommuningwithdet
thepastandthensaidshrewdly:.“Mindyou,Inoticed
det
therewassomethingqueercomingoverhimlatterly.WheneverI’d
tog
bringinhissouptohimthereI’dfann
findhimwithhisbreviaryfallentothefloor,lyingbackinthechairandhismouthopen.”Shelaid
ett
afingeragainsthernoseoch
andfrowned:thenshecontinued:.
“But
ändå
stillandallhekeptonsäga
sayingthatbeforethesummerwasöver
overhe’dgooutforadriveonefinedag
dayjusttoseethegamla
oldhouseagainwherewewerealla
allborndowninIrishtownoch
andtakemeandNanniemed
withhim.Ifwecould
bara
onlygetoneofthemnew-fangledcarriagessom
thatmakesnonoisethatFader
FatherO’Rourketoldhimabout,themmed
withtherheumaticwheels,forde
thedaycheap—hesaid,atJohnnyRush’söver
overthewaythereandköra
driveoutthethreeofustillsammans
togetherofaSundayevening.He
hade
hadhismindsetonthat....Stackars
PoorJames!”“TheLordhavemercyonhissoul!”
sa
saidmyaunt.Elizatookoutherhandkerchief
och
andwipedhereyeswithden
it.Thensheputit
tillbaka
backagaininherpocketoch
andgazedintotheemptygrateforsometimeutan
withoutspeaking.