I
Inmyyounger
i
andmorevulnerableyearsmyojciec
fathergavemesomeadvicethatI’vebeenturningoverinmymindeverod
since.“Wheneveryoufeellikecriticizinganyone,”he
powiedział
toldme,“justrememberthatallthepeopleintym
thisworldhaven’thadtheadvantagesże
thatyou’vehad.”Hedidn’t
powiedział
sayanymore,butwe’vezawsze
alwaysbeenunusuallycommunicativeinareservedsposób
way,andIunderstoodthathemeantagreatdealwięcej
morethanthat.Inconsequence,I’minclinedtoreserve
wszystkie
alljudgements,ahabitthathasopenedupwiele
manycuriousnaturestomea
andalsomademethevictimofnotafewveteranbores.Theabnormal
umysł
mindisquicktodetecti
andattachitselftothisqualitygdy
whenitappearsinanormalosobie
person,andsoitcameo
aboutthatincollegeIwasunjustlyaccusedofbeingapolitician,ponieważ
becauseIwasprivytothesecretgriefsofwild,unknownmen.Większość
Mostoftheconfidenceswereunsought—frequentlyIhavefeignedsen
sleep,preoccupation,orahostilelevitygdy
whenIrealizedbysomeunmistakablesignże
thatanintimaterevelationwasquiveringonthehorizon;fortheintimaterevelationsof
młodych
youngmen,oratleastthetermsinwhichtheyexpressje
them,areusuallyplagiaristicandmarredbyobvioussuppressions.Reservingjudgementsisa
kwestia
matterofinfinitehope.Iamstilla
trochę
littleafraidofmissingsomethingjeśli
ifIforgetthat,asmyojciec
fathersnobbishlysuggested,andIsnobbishlyrepeat,asenseofthefundamentaldecenciesisparcelledsię
outunequallyatbirth.And,
po
afterboastingthiswayofmytolerance,Icometotheadmissionże
thatithasalimit.Conduct
może
maybefoundedonthehardrocklub
orthewetmarshes,butpo
afteracertainpointIdon’tcarewhatit’sfoundedna
on.WhenIcamebackfromtheEastlastautumnI
czułem
feltthatIwantedtheworldtobeinuniformi
andatasortofmoralattentionforever;Iwanted
nie
nomoreriotousexcursionswithprivilegedglimpsesintothehumanserce
heart.OnlyGatsby,themanwhogiveshis
nazwę
nametothisbook,wasexemptfrommyreaction—Gatsby,whorepresentedwszystko
everythingforwhichIhaveanunaffectedscorn.Jeśli
Ifpersonalityisanunbrokenseriesofsuccessfulgestures,thentherewascoś
somethinggorgeousabouthim,someheightenedsensitivitytothepromisesofżycia
life,asifhewererelatedtojedną
oneofthoseintricatemachinesktóre
thatregisterearthquakestenthousandmilesaway.Ta
Thisresponsivenesshadnothingtodowiththatflabbyimpressionabilitywhichisdignifiedpod
underthenameofthe“creativetemperament”—itwasanextraordinarygiftfornadziei
hope,aromanticreadinesssuchasImiała
haveneverfoundinanyotherosobie
personandwhichitisnotlikelyIshalleverfindagain.No—Gatsbyturned
się
outallrightatthekońcu
end;itiswhatpreyedonGatsby,whatfouldustfloatedin
ten
thewakeofhisdreamsktóry
thattemporarilyclosedoutmyinterestinten
theabortivesorrowsandshort-windedelationsofmen.Myfamilyhavebeenprominent,well-to-dopeoplein
tym
thisMiddleWesterncityfortrzech
threegenerations.TheCarrawaysare
czymś
somethingofaclan,andwemamy
haveatraditionthatwe’redescendedfromtheDukesofBuccleuch,ale
buttheactualfounderofmylinii
linewasmygrandfather’sbrother,whocametu
hereinfifty-one,sentasubstitutetotheCivilWojny
War,andstartedthewholesalehardwarebusinessthatmyojciec
fathercarriesontoday.I
nigdy nie
neversawthisgreat-uncle,butI’msupposedtowyglądać
looklikehim—withspecialreferencetotheratherhard-boiledpaintingktóry
thathangsinfather’soffice.IgraduatedfromNewHavenin1915,
zaledwie
justaquarterofacenturypo
aftermyfather,andalittlepóźniej
laterIparticipatedinthatdelayedTeutonicmigrationknownastheGreatWojna
War.Ienjoyedthecounter-raidsothoroughly
że
thatIcamebackrestless.Insteadofbeingthewarmcentreofthe
świata
world,theMiddleWestnowseemedliketheraggededgeoftheuniverse—soIdecidedtogoEasti
andlearnthebondbusiness.Wszyscy
EverybodyIknewwasinthebondbusiness,soIsupposeditcouldsupportonemoresingleman.Wszystkie
Allmyauntsandunclesrozmawiali
talkeditoverasiftheywerechoosingaprepschoolformnie
me,andfinallysaid,“Why—ye-es,”z
withverygrave,hesitantfaces.Ojciec
Fatheragreedtofinancemeforarok
year,andaftervariousdelaysIprzyszedłem
cameEast,permanently,Ithought,inthespringoftwenty-two.Thepracticalthingwastofindroomsinthecity,
ale
butitwasawarmseason,andIhadjustopuściłem
leftacountryofwidelawnsandfriendlytrees,sokiedy
whenayoungmanattheofficesuggestedthatwewzięli
takeahousetogetherinacommutingtown,itsoundedjak
likeagreatidea.He
znalazł
foundthehouse,aweather-beatencardboardbungalowateightyamonth,ale
butatthelastminutethefirmorderedhimtoWashington,a
andIwentouttothecountrysam
alone.Ihadadog—atleastI
miałem
hadhimforafewdaysdopóki
untilheranaway—andanoldDodgei
andaFinnishwoman,whomademyłóżko
bedandcookedbreakfastandmutteredFinnishwisdomtoherselfnad
overtheelectricstove.Itwaslonelyfora
dzień
dayorsountiloneranka
morningsomeman,morerecentlyarrivedniż
thanI,stoppedmeontheroad.“Howdoyou
dostać
gettoWestEggvillage?”he
zapytał
askedhelplessly.Itoldhim.
I
AndasIwalkedonIwaslonelynie
nolonger.Iwasaguide,apathfinder,anoriginalsettler.
Hehadcasuallyconferredonmethefreedomoftheneighbourhood.
I
Andsowiththesunshinei
andthegreatburstsofleavesgrowingonthetrees,justasthingsgrowinfastmovies,Imiałem
hadthatfamiliarconvictionthatlifewasbeginningoveragainwiththesummer.Therewasso
wiele
muchtoread,foronething,i
andsomuchfinehealthtobepulleddownoutoftheyoungbreath-givingair.Iboughtadozenvolumesonbanking
i
andcreditandinvestmentsecurities,i
andtheystoodonmyshelfinredi
andgoldlikenewmoneyfromthemint,promisingtounfoldtheshiningsecretsktóre
thatonlyMidasandMorgani
andMaecenasknew.AndI
miałem
hadthehighintentionofreadingwiele
manyotherbooksbesides.Iwasratherliteraryincollege—one
roku
yearIwroteaseriesofbardzo
verysolemnandobviouseditorialsfortheYaleNews—andteraz
nowIwasgoingtobringbackwszystkie
allsuchthingsintomyżycia
lifeandbecomeagainthatnajbardziej
mostlimitedofallspecialists,the“well-roundedman.”Thisisn’t
tylko
justanepigram—lifeismuchbardziej
moresuccessfullylookedatfromasinglewindow,afterall.Itwasa
sprawa
matterofchancethatIshouldhaverentedadom
houseinoneofthestrangestcommunitiesinNorthAmerica.Itwasonthatslenderriotousislandwhichextendsitselfdueeastof
Nowego
NewYork—andwherethereare,amongothernaturalcuriosities,dwie
twounusualformationsofland.Twentymilesfromthe
miasta
cityapairofenormouseggs,identicalincontouri
andseparatedonlybyacourtesybay,jutoutintothenajbardziej
mostdomesticatedbodyofsaltwody
waterintheWesternhemisphere,thegreatwetbarnyardofLongIslandSound.Theyarenotperfectovals—liketheeggintheColumbusstory,theyare
oba
bothcrushedflatatthecontactend—buttheirphysicalresemblancemusi
mustbeasourceofperpetualwondertothegullsktóre
thatflyoverhead.Tothewinglessa
bardziej
moreinterestingphenomenonistheirdissimilarityineveryparticularexceptshapei
andsize.IlivedatWestEgg,the—well,thelessfashionableofthe
dwóch
two,thoughthisisanajbardziej
mostsuperficialtagtoexpressthebizarrei
andnotalittlesinistercontrastmiędzy
betweenthem.Myhousewasattheverytipoftheegg,onlyfiftyyardsfromtheSound,
i
andsqueezedbetweentwohugeplacesktóre
thatrentedfortwelveorfifteenthousandaseason.Ten
Theoneonmyrightwasacolossalaffairbyanystandard—itwasafactualimitationofsomeHôteldeVilleinNormandy,withatowerononestronie
side,spankingnewunderathinbeardofrawivy,i
andamarbleswimmingpool,i
andmorethanfortyacresoflawni
andgarden.ItwasGatsby’smansion.
Albo
Or,rather,asIdidn’tznałem
knowMr.Gatsby,itwasamansioninhabitedbyagentlemanofthatname.My
własny
ownhousewasaneyesore,ale
butitwasasmalleyesore,i
andithadbeenoverlooked,soImiałem
hadaviewofthewodę
water,apartialviewofmyneighbour’slawn,i
andtheconsolingproximityofmillionaires—allforeightydollarsamonth.AcrossthecourtesybaythewhitepalacesoffashionableEastEggglittered
wzdłuż
alongthewater,andthehistoryofthesummernaprawdę
reallybeginsontheeveningIdroveovertam
theretohavedinnerwiththeTomBuchanans.Daisywasmysecondcousinonceremoved,
a
andI’dknownTomincollege.I
AndjustafterthewarIspentdwa
twodayswiththeminChicago.Her
mąż
husband,amongvariousphysicalaccomplishments,hadbeenoneofthemostpowerfulendsthatevergrały
playedfootballatNewHaven—anationalfigureinaway,oneoftych
thosemenwhoreachsuchanacutelimitedexcellenceattwenty-onethatwszystko
everythingafterwardsavoursofanticlimax.Hisfamilywereenormouslywealthy—evenincollegehisfreedom
z
withmoneywasamatterforreproach—butteraz
nowhe’dleftChicagoandcomeEastinafashionktóry
thatrathertookyourbreathaway:forinstance,he’d
przyniósł
broughtdownastringofpoloponiesfromLakeForest.Itwas
ciężko
hardtorealizethataczłowiek
maninmyowngenerationwaswealthytyle
enoughtodothat.Whythey
przyszli
cameEastIdon’tknow.Theyhadspenta
rok
yearinFrancefornoparticularpowodu
reason,andthendriftedhereandthereunrestfullywhereverpeoplegrali
playedpoloandwererichrazem
together.Thiswasapermanentmove,
powiedziała
saidDaisyoverthetelephone,ale
butIdidn’tbelieveit—Ihadnie
nosightintoDaisy’sheart,ale
butIfeltthatTomwoulddriftonforeverseeking,atrochę
littlewistfully,forthedramaticturbulenceofsomeirrecoverablefootballgry
game.Andsoithappened
że
thatonawarmwindyeveningIdroveovertoEastEggtoseedwóch
twooldfriendswhomIscarcelyznałem
knewatall.Theirhousewas
jeszcze
evenmoreelaboratethanIexpected,acheerfulred-and-whiteGeorgianColonialmansion,overlookingthebay.Thelawnstartedatthebeach
i
andrantowardsthefrontdrzwi
doorforaquarterofamile,jumpingoversundialsi
andbrickwalksandburninggardens—finallygdy
whenitreachedthehousedriftingsię
upthesideinbrightvinesasthoughfromthemomentumofitsrun.ThefrontwasbrokenbyalineofFrenchwindows,glowing
teraz
nowwithreflectedgoldandwideopentothewarmwindyafternoon,andTomBuchananinridingclotheswasstał
standingwithhislegsapartonthefrontporch.Hehad
zmienił
changedsincehisNewHavenyears.Teraz
Nowhewasasturdystraw-hairedmężczyzna
manofthirty,witharatherhardmouthi
andasuperciliousmanner.Twoshiningarroganteyeshadestablisheddominance
nad
overhisfaceandgavehimtheappearanceofzawsze
alwaysleaningaggressivelyforward.Not
nawet
eventheeffeminateswankofhisridingclothescouldhidetheenormouspowerofthatbody—heseemedtofillte
thoseglisteningbootsuntilhestrainedthetoplacing,a
andyoucouldseeawielki
greatpackofmuscleshiftinggdy
whenhisshouldermovedunderhisthincoat.Itwasabodycapableofenormousleverage—acruelbody.
Hisspeakingvoice,agruffhuskytenor,addedtotheimpressionoffractiousnessheconveyed.
Therewasatouchofpaternalcontemptin
go
it,eventowardpeopleheliked—andthereweremenatNewHavenktórzy
whohadhatedhisguts.“Now,don’t
myśl
thinkmyopiniononthesemattersisfinal,”heseemedtosay,“justdlatego
becauseI’mstrongerandmoreofamężczyzna
manthanyouare.”Wewereinthe
tym samym
sameseniorsociety,andwhilewewerenigdy nie
neverintimateIalwayshadtheimpressionże
thatheapprovedofmei
andwantedmetolikehimwithsomeharsh,defiantwistfulnessofhisown.We
rozmawialiśmy
talkedforafewminutesonthesunnyporch.“I’vegota
ładne
niceplacehere,”hesaid,hiseyesflashingaboutrestlessly.Turningmearoundby
jedną
onearm,hemovedabroadflathandwzdłuż
alongthefrontvista,includinginitssweepasunkenItaliangarden,apół
halfacreofdeep,pungentroses,i
andasnub-nosedmotorboatthatbumpedthetideoffshore.“ItbelongedtoDemaine,theoilman.”
Heturnedmearound
ponownie
again,politelyandabruptly.“We’llgoinside.”
Wewalkedthroughahighhallwayintoabrightrosy-colouredspace,fragilelyboundintothehousebyFrenchwindowsateitherend.
Thewindowswereajar
i
andgleamingwhiteagainstthefreshgrasszewnątrz
outsidethatseemedtogrowatrochę
littlewayintothehouse.Abreezeblew
przez
throughtheroom,blewcurtainsinatjednym
oneendandoutthedrugiej
otherlikepaleflags,twistingthemuptowardthefrostedwedding-cakeoftheceiling,andthenrippledoverthewine-colouredrug,makingashadowonitaswinddoesonthesea.The
jedynym
onlycompletelystationaryobjectintheroomwasanenormouscouchonwhichdwie
twoyoungwomenwerebuoyedupasthoughuponananchoredballoon.Theywerebothinwhite,andtheirdresseswereripplingandflutteringasiftheyhadjustbeenblown
powrotem
backinafterashortflightwokół
aroundthehouse.Imusthavestoodfora
kilka
fewmomentslisteningtothewhipi
andsnapofthecurtainsi
andthegroanofapictureonthewall.ThentherewasaboomasTomBuchanan
zamknął
shuttherearwindowsandthecaughtwinddiedsię
outabouttheroom,andthecurtainsandtherugsandthedwie
twoyoungwomenballoonedslowlytothefloor.Theyoungerofthetwowasastrangerto
mnie
me.Shewasextendedfulllengthather
końcu
endofthedivan,completelymotionless,i
andwithherchinraisedatrochę
little,asifshewerebalancingcoś
somethingonitwhichwasdość
quitelikelytofall.Ifshesawmeoutofthecornerofhereyesshe
dała
gavenohintofit—indeed,Iwasprawie
almostsurprisedintomurmuringanapologyforhavingdisturbedherbycomingw
in.Theothergirl,Daisy,madeanattempttorise—sheleanedslightlyforward
z
withaconscientiousexpression—thenshelaughed,anabsurd,charminglittlelaugh,andIlaughedteż
tooandcameforwardintotheroom.“I’mp-paralysedwithhappiness.”
Shelaughed
ponownie
again,asifshesaidcoś
somethingverywitty,andheldmyrękę
handforamoment,lookingsię
upintomyface,promisingże
thattherewasnooneintheświecie
worldshesomuchwantedtosee.Thatwasa
droga
wayshehad.Shehintedinamurmur
że
thatthesurnameofthebalancinggirlwasBaker.(I’ve
słyszałem
hearditsaidthatDaisy’smurmurwastylko
onlytomakepeopleleantowardniej
her;anirrelevantcriticismthat
uczyniła
madeitnolesscharming.)Atanyrate,MissBaker’slipsfluttered,shenoddedatme
niemal
almostimperceptibly,andthenquicklytippedhergłowę
headbackagain—theobjectshewasbalancinghadobviouslytotteredatrochę
littleandgivenhersomethingofafright.Znowu
Againasortofapologyarosetomylips.Prawie
Almostanyexhibitionofcompleteself-sufficiencydrawsastunnedtributefrommnie
me.Ilookedbackatmycousin,whobegantoaskmequestionsinherlow,thrillingvoice.
Itwasthekindofvoicethattheearfollows
górę
upanddown,asifkażda
eachspeechisanarrangementofnotesthatwillneverbeplayedagain.Herfacewassad
i
andlovelywithbrightthingsinit,brighteyesi
andabrightpassionatemouth,ale
buttherewasanexcitementinhervoiceże
thatmenwhohadcaredforherfounddifficulttoforget:asingingcompulsion,awhispered“Listen,”a
obietnica
promisethatshehaddonegay,excitingthingszaledwie
justawhilesinceandże
thatthereweregay,excitingthingshoveringinthenexthour.Itoldher
jak
howIhadstoppedoffinChicagoforadzień
dayonmywayEast,i
andhowadozenpeoplehadwysłał
senttheirlovethroughme.“Dotheymissme?”
shecriedecstatically.
“The
całe
wholetownisdesolate.Allthecars
mają
havetheleftrearwheelpaintedblackasamourningwreath,a
andthere’sapersistentwailwszystkie
allnightalongthenorthshore.”“Howgorgeous!
Let’sgoback,Tom.
Tomorrow!”
Thensheaddedirrelevantly:
“Yououghttoseethebaby.”
“I’dliketo.”
“She’sasleep.
She’s
trzy
threeyearsold.Haven’tyouever
widziałeś
seenher?”“Never.”
“Well,yououghttoseeher.
She’s—”.
TomBuchanan,
który
whohadbeenhoveringrestlesslyabouttheroom,zatrzymał
stoppedandrestedhishandonmyshoulder.“Whatyoudoing,Nick?”
“I’mabondman.”
“Whowith?”
I
powiedziałem
toldhim.“Neverheardofthem,”heremarkeddecisively.
Thisannoyed
mnie
me.“Youwill,”Iansweredshortly.
“Youwill
jeśli
ifyoustayintheEast.”“Oh,I’llstayintheEast,don’tyouworry,”he
powiedział
said,glancingatDaisyandthenbackatmnie
me,asifhewerealertforcoś
somethingmore.“I’dbeaGoddamnedfooltoliveanywhereelse.”
At
tym
thispointMissBakersaid:“Absolutely!”
withsuchsuddenness
które
thatIstarted—itwasthefirstsłowo
wordshehadutteredsinceIcameintotheroom.Evidentlyitsurprisedherasmuchasitdid
mnie
me,forsheyawnedandwithaseriesofrapid,deftmovementsstoodupintotheroom.“I’mstiff,”shecomplained,“I’vebeenlyingonthatsofaforas
długo
longasIcanremember.”“Don’t
patrz
lookatme,”Daisyretorted,“I’vebeenpróbowałem
tryingtogetyoutoNowego
NewYorkallafternoon.”“No,thanks,”
powiedziała
saidMissBakertothefourcocktailsjustinfromthepantry.“I’mabsolutelyintraining.”
Herhost
spojrzał
lookedatherincredulously.“Youare!”
He
wziął
tookdownhisdrinkasifitwereadropinthebottomofaglass.“Howyoueverget
coś
anythingdoneisbeyondme.”I
spojrzałam
lookedatMissBaker,wonderingwhatitwasshe“gotdone.”Ienjoyedlookingather.
Shewasaslender,small-breastedgirl,
z
withanerectcarriage,whichsheaccentuatedbythrowingherbodybackwardattheshouldersjak
likeayoungcadet.Hergreysun-strainedeyes
spojrzały
lookedbackatmewithpolitereciprocalcuriosityoutofawan,charming,discontentedtwarzy
face.Itoccurredtome
teraz
nowthatIhadseenher,lub
orapictureofher,somewherebefore.“YouliveinWestEgg,”sheremarkedcontemptuously.
“I
znam
knowsomebodythere.”“Idon’t
znam
knowasingle—”.“Youmust
znać
knowGatsby.”“Gatsby?”
demandedDaisy.
“WhatGatsby?”
Zanim
BeforeIcouldreplythathewasmyneighbourdinnerwasannounced;wedginghistensearmimperativelyundermine,TomBuchanancompelledmefromtheroomasthoughheweremovingacheckertoanothersquare.
Slenderly,languidly,theirhandssetlightlyontheirhips,the
dwie
twoyoungwomenprecededusoutontoarosy-colouredporch,opentowardthesunset,gdzie
wherefourcandlesflickeredonthetableinthediminishedwind.“Whycandles?”
objectedDaisy,frowning.
Shesnappedthemoutwithherfingers.
“In
dwa
twoweeksit’llbethelongestdzień
dayintheyear.”She
spojrzała
lookedatusallradiantly.“Doyou
zawsze
alwayswatchforthelongestdzień
dayoftheyearandthenmissgo
it?Ialwayswatchforthelongest
dzień
dayintheyearandthenmissit.”“Weoughttoplansomething,”yawned
Panna
MissBaker,sittingdownatthetableasifsheweregettingintołóżka
bed.“Allright,”saidDaisy.
“What’llweplan?”
Sheturnedtomehelplessly:
“Whatdopeopleplan?”
Zanim
BeforeIcouldanswerhereyesfastenedz
withanawedexpressiononherlittlefinger.“Look!”
shecomplained;
“I
zraniłem
hurtit.”Wealllooked—theknucklewasblackandblue.
“You
zrobiłeś
didit,Tom,”shesaidaccusingly.“I
wiem
knowyoudidn’tmeanto,ale
butyoudiddoit.That’swhatIgetformarryingabruteofaman,agreat,big,hulkingphysicalspecimenofa—”.
“I
nienawidzę
hatethatword‘hulking,’ ”objectedTomcrossly,“eveninkidding.”“Hulking,”insistedDaisy.
Czasami
SometimessheandMissBakerrozmawiały
talkedatonce,unobtrusivelyandwithabanteringinconsequencektóra
thatwasneverquitechatter,która
thatwasascoolastheirwhitedressesi
andtheirimpersonaleyesintheabsenceofalldesire.Theywere
tutaj
here,andtheyacceptedTomi
andme,makingonlyapolitepleasantefforttoentertainlub
ortobeentertained.They
wiedzieli
knewthatpresentlydinnerwouldbeoverandalittlepóźniej
latertheeveningtoowouldbeoverandcasuallyputaway.ItwassharplydifferentfromtheWest,
gdzie
whereaneveningwashurriedfromphasetophasetowardsitsclose,inacontinuallydisappointedanticipationalbo
orelseinsheernervousdreadofthemomentitself.“Youmakeme
czuję
feeluncivilized,Daisy,”Iconfessedonmysecondglassofcorkyale
butratherimpressiveclaret.“Can’tyoutalk
o
aboutcropsorsomething?”Imeantnothinginparticularby
ta
thisremark,butitwastakenupinanunexpectedsposób
way.“Civilization’sgoingtopieces,”broke
się
outTomviolently.“I’vegottentobeaterriblepessimistaboutthings.
HaveyoureadTheRiseoftheColouredEmpiresby
tego
thismanGoddard?”“Why,no,”I
odpowiedziałem
answered,rathersurprisedbyhistone.“Well,it’safinebook,
i
andeverybodyoughttoreadto
it.Theideaisifwedon’tlookoutthewhiteracewillbe—willbeutterlysubmerged.
It’sallscientific
rzeczy
stuff;it’sbeenproved.”