THESISTERS
Therewasno
håp
hopeforhimthistime:itwasthethirdstroke.
Night
etter
afternightIhadpassedthehuset
house(itwasvacationtime)og
andstudiedthelightedsquareofwindow:og
andnightafternightIhadde
hadfounditlightedinthesamme
sameway,faintlyandevenly.Hvis
Ifhewasdead,Itenkte
thought,Iwouldseethereflectionofcandlesonden
thedarkenedblindforIvisste
knewthattwocandlesmustbesetatden
theheadofacorpse.He
hadde
hadoftensaidtome:“Iamnot
lenge
longforthisworld,”andIhadde
hadthoughthiswordsidle.Nå
NowIknewtheyweresanne
true.EverynightasIgazed
opp
upatthewindowIsa
saidsoftlytomyselftheordet
wordparalysis.Ithadalways
hørtes
soundedstrangelyinmyears,som
likethewordgnomonintheEuclidog
andthewordsimonyintheCatechism.Men
Butnowitsoundedtomesom
likethenameofsomemaleficentog
andsinfulbeing.Itfilledme
med
withfear,andyetIlongedtobenearertoitog
andtolookuponitsdeadlyarbeid
work.OldCotterwassittingatthefire,smoking,
da
whenIcamedownstairstosupper.Mens
Whilemyauntwasladlingut
outmystirabouthesaid,asom
ifreturningtosomeformerremarkofhans
his:.“No,Iwouldn’tsayhewas
akkurat
exactly...buttherewas
noe
somethingqueer...therewas
noe
somethinguncannyabouthim.I’ll
fortelle
tellyoumyopinion....”Hebegantopuffathispipe,nodoubtarranginghisopinioninhis
sinn
mind.Tiresomeoldfool!
Whenwe
kjente
knewhimfirstheusedtoberatherinteresting,snakker
talkingoffaintsandworms;men
butIsoongrewtiredofhimog
andhisendlessstoriesaboutthedistillery.“I
har
havemyowntheoryaboutit,”hesa
said.“Ithinkitwas
en
oneofthose...peculiarcases....
Men
Butit’shardtosay....”Hebegantopuff
igjen
againathispipewithoutgi
givingushistheory.My
onkel
unclesawmestaringandsa
saidtome:.“Well,soyour
gamle
oldfriendisgone,you’llbelei
sorrytohear.”“Who?”
said
Jeg
I.“FatherFlynn.”
“Ishedead?”
“MrCotter
her
herehasjusttoldus.Hewaspassingbythehouse.”
I
visste
knewthatIwasunderobservationsoIcontinuedspise
eatingasifthenewshadde
hadnotinterestedme.My
onkel
uncleexplainedtooldCotter.“Theyoungster
og
andheweregreatfriends.Den
Theoldchaptaughthimen
agreatdeal,mindyou;og
andtheysayhehadet
agreatwishforhim.”“Godhavemercyonhissoul,”
sa
saidmyauntpiously.OldCotter
så
lookedatmeforastund
while.Ifeltthathis
små
littlebeadyblackeyeswereexaminingmemen
butIwouldnotsatisfyhimbyse
lookingupfrommyplate.Hereturnedtohispipe
og
andfinallyspatrudelyintothegrate.“Iwouldn’tlikechildrenofmine,”hesaid,“to
ha
havetoomuchtosaytoen
amanlikethat.”“Howdoyou
mener
mean,MrCotter?”askedmyaunt.
“WhatI
mener
meanis,”saidoldCotter,“it’sdårlig
badforchildren.Myidea
er
is:letayounglad
løpe
runaboutandplaywithyoungladsofhisegen
ownageandnotbe....AmI
rett
right,Jack?”“That’smyprinciple,too,”
sa
saidmyuncle.“Lethim
lære
learntoboxhiscorner.That’swhatI’m
alltid
alwayssayingtothatRosicrucianthere:ta
takeexercise.Why,whenIwasanipper
hver
everymorningofmylifeIhadde
hadacoldbath,winterog
andsummer.Andthat’swhat
står
standstomenow.Educationis
alt
allveryfineandlarge....MrCotter
kan
mighttakeapickofat
thatlegmutton,”headdedtomyaunt.“No,
nei
no,notforme,”saidgamle
oldCotter.Myauntbroughtthedishfromthesafe
og
andputitonthetable.“But
hvorfor
whydoyouthinkit’snotbra
goodforchildren,MrCotter?”she
spurte
asked.“It’sbadforchildren,”
sa
saidoldCotter,“becausetheirmindsaresoimpressionable.Når
Whenchildrenseethingslikethat,youvet
know,ithasaneffect....”Icrammedmymouth
med
withstiraboutforfearIkunne
mightgiveutterancetomyanger.Tiresome
gammel
oldred-nosedimbecile!Itwas
sent
latewhenIfellasleep.Om
ThoughIwasangrywithgamle
oldCotterforalludingtomeaset
achild,Ipuzzledmyhodet
headtoextractmeaningfromhisunfinishedsentences.In
den
thedarkofmyroomIimaginedthatIså
sawagaintheheavygreyansiktet
faceoftheparalytic.Idrewtheblankets
over
overmyheadandtriedtotenke
thinkofChristmas.Butthegrey
ansiktet
facestillfollowedme.Itmurmured;
og
andIunderstoodthatitdesiredtoconfessnoe
something.Ifeltmysoulrecedinginto
noen
somepleasantandviciousregion;og
andthereagainIfounditventer
waitingforme.Itbegantoconfesstomein
en
amurmuringvoiceandIwonderedhvorfor
whyitsmiledcontinuallyandhvorfor
whythelipsweresomoistmed
withspittle.ButthenI
husket
rememberedthatithaddiedofparalysisog
andIfeltthatIogså
toowassmilingfeeblyasom
iftoabsolvethesimoniacofhissin.The
neste
nextmorningafterbreakfastIgikk
wentdowntolookatthelille
littlehouseinGreatBritainStreet
Street.Itwasanunassumingshop,registered
under
underthevaguenameofDrapery.Thedraperyconsistedmainlyofchildren’sbootees
og
andumbrellas;andonordinarydays
en
anoticeusedtohanginthewindow,sier
saying:UmbrellasRe-covered.
Nonoticewasvisible
nå
nowfortheshutterswereopp
up.Acrapebouquetwastiedtothedoor-knocker
med
withribbon.Twopoorwomen
og
andatelegramboywereleste
readingthecardpinnedonthecrape.I
også
alsoapproachedandread:.July1st,1895TheRev.JamesFlynn(formerlyofS.Catherine’sChurch,MeathStreet),agedsixty-fiveyears.R.I.P.
Thereadingofthecardpersuadedme
at
thathewasdeadandIwasdisturbedtofinne
findmyselfatcheck.Hadhenotbeen
død
deadIwouldhavegoneintothelille
littledarkroombehindtheshoptofinne
findhimsittinginhisarm-chairbythefire,nearlysmotheredinhisgreat-coat.Kanskje
Perhapsmyauntwouldhavegivenmeen
apacketofHighToastforhimog
andthispresentwouldhaverousedhimfromhisstupefieddoze.Itwas
alltid
alwaysIwhoemptiedthepacketintohisblacksnuff-boxforhishandstrembledtoomye
muchtoallowhimtogjøre
dothiswithoutspillinghalfthesnuffom
aboutthefloor.Evenasheraisedhislargetrembling
hånd
handtohisnoselittlecloudsofsmokedribbledgjennom
throughhisfingersovertheforsiden
frontofhiscoat.It
kan
mayhavebeentheseconstantshowersofsnuffwhichgavehisancientpriestlygarmentstheirgreenfadedutseende
lookfortheredhandkerchief,blackened,asitalltid
alwayswas,withthesnuff-stainsofen
aweek,withwhichheprøvde
triedtobrushawaythefallengrains,wasganske
quiteinefficacious.Iwishedto
gå
goinandlookathimmen
butIhadnotthecouragetoknock.I
gikk
walkedawayslowlyalongthesunnysideofden
thestreet,readingallthetheatricaladvertisementsinden
theshop-windowsasIwent.IfounditstrangethatneitherInorthe
dagen
dayseemedinamourningmoodog
andIfeltevenannoyedatdiscoveringinmyselfen
asensationoffreedomasom
ifIhadbeenfreedfromnoe
somethingbyhisdeath.Iwonderedat
dette
thisfor,asmyunclehadde
hadsaidthenightbefore,hehadde
hadtaughtmeagreatavtale
deal.HehadstudiedintheIrishcollegeinRome
og
andhehadtaughtmetopronounceLatinproperly.He
hadde
hadtoldmestoriesaboutde
thecatacombsandaboutNapoleonBonaparte,og
andhehadexplainedtomede
themeaningofthedifferentceremoniesofde
theMassandoftheforskjellige
differentvestmentswornbythepriest.Noen ganger
Sometimeshehadamusedhimselfbysette
puttingdifficultquestionstome,spørre
askingmewhatoneshouldgjøre
doincertaincircumstancesorwhetherslike
suchandsuchsinsweremortaleller
orvenialoronlyimperfections.Hisquestions
viste
showedmehowcomplexandmysteriouswerecertaininstitutionsofde
theChurchwhichIhadalltid
alwaysregardedasthesimplestacts.ThedutiesofthepriesttowardstheEucharist
og
andtowardsthesecrecyoftheconfessionalseemedsogravetomeat
thatIwonderedhowanybodyhadde
hadeverfoundinhimselfthecouragetoundertakedem
them;andIwasnotsurprised
da
whenhetoldmethatthefathersoftheChurchhadde
hadwrittenbooksasthickasthePostOffice
OfficeDirectoryandascloselyprintedastheloven
lawnoticesinthenewspaper,elucidatingalle
alltheseintricatequestions.Often
når
whenIthoughtofthisIkunne
couldmakenoanswerorbare
onlyaveryfoolishandhaltingoneuponsom
whichheusedtosmileog
andnodhisheadtwiceeller
orthrice.Sometimesheusedto
sette
putmethroughtheresponsesoftheMasssom
whichhehadmademelære
learnbyheart;and,asIpattered,he
pleide
usedtosmilepensivelyandnodhishodet
head,nowandthenpushinghugepinchesofsnuffopp
upeachnostrilalternately.Whenhesmiledhe
pleide
usedtouncoverhisbigdiscolouredteethog
andlethistonguelieuponhislowerlip—ahabitsom
whichhadmademefeeluneasyinthebeginningofouracquaintancefør
beforeIknewhimwell.AsI
gikk
walkedalonginthesunIrememberedgamle
oldCotter’swordsandtriedtohuske
rememberwhathadhappenedafterwardsinthedrømmen
dream.IrememberedthatI
hadde
hadnoticedlongvelvetcurtainsog
andaswinginglampofantiquefashion.Ifelt
at
thatIhadbeenverylangt
faraway,insomelandhvor
wherethecustomswerestrange—inPersia,Itenkte
thought....ButIcouldnot
huske
remembertheendofthedrømmen
dream.Intheeveningmyaunt
tok
tookmewithhertovisitthehus
houseofmourning.Itwas
etter
aftersunset;butthewindow-panesof
den
thehousesthatlookedtoden
thewestreflectedthetawnygoldofen
agreatbankofclouds.Nanniereceivedusinthehall;
og
and,asitwouldhavebeenunseemlytoha
haveshoutedather,myauntshookhandsmed
withherforall.The
gamle
oldwomanpointedupwardsinterrogativelyog
and,onmyaunt’snodding,proceededtotoilopp
upthenarrowstaircasebeforeoss
us,herbowedheadbeingscarcelyaboveden
thelevelofthebanister-rail.Atthe
første
firstlandingshestoppedandbeckonedusforwardencouraginglytowardstheåpne
opendoorofthedead-room.Myaunt
gikk
wentinandtheoldwoman,ser
seeingthatIhesitatedtoenter,begantobeckontomeigjen
againrepeatedlywithherhand.I
gikk
wentinontiptoe.The
rommet
roomthroughthelaceendoftheblindwassuffusedwithduskygoldenlys
lightamidwhichthecandlesså
lookedlikepalethinflames.He
hadde
hadbeencoffined.Nanniegavethelead
og
andwethreekneltdownatthefootofthesengen
bed.Ipretendedtopray
men
butIcouldnotgathermythoughtsfordi
becausetheoldwoman’smutteringsdistractedme.Inoticedhowclumsilyherskirtwashookedat
den
thebackandhowtheheelsofherclothbootsweretroddenned
downalltooneside.Den
Thefancycametomeat
thattheoldpriestwassmilingashelå
laythereinhiscoffin.Men
Butno.Whenweroseog
andwentuptothehodet
headofthebedIså
sawthathewasnotsmiling.Der
Therehelay,solemnandcopious,vestedasforthealtar,hislargehandslooselyretainingen
achalice.Hisfacewas
veldig
verytruculent,greyandmassive,med
withblackcavernousnostrilsandcircledbyen
ascantywhitefur.Therewas
en
aheavyodourintheroom—theflowers.Weblessedourselves
og
andcameaway.Inthe
lille
littleroomdownstairswefoundElizaseatedinhisarm-chairinstate.Igropedmy
vei
waytowardsmyusualchairinthecornermens
whileNanniewenttothesideboardog
andbroughtoutadecanterofsherryog
andsomewine-glasses.Sheset
disse
theseonthetableandinvitedustota
takealittleglassofwine.Then,athersister’sbidding,shefilled
ut
outthesherryintotheglassesog
andpassedthemtous.Shepressedmeto
ta
takesomecreamcrackersalsomen
butIdeclinedbecauseItrodde
thoughtIwouldmaketoomye
muchnoiseeatingthem.Sheseemedtobesomewhatdisappointedatmyrefusal
og
andwentoverquietlytothesofahvor
whereshesatdownbehindhersøster
sister.Noonespoke:
we
alle
allgazedattheemptyfireplace.Myaunt
ventet
waiteduntilElizasighedandthensa
said:.“Ah,well,he’sgoneto
en
abetterworld.”Elizasighed
igjen
againandbowedherheadinassent.Myauntfingeredthestemofherwine-glass
før
beforesippingalittle.“Didhe...
peacefully?”
she
spurte
asked.“Oh,quitepeacefully,ma’am,”
sa
saidEliza.“Youcouldn’ttell
når
whenthebreathwentoutofham
him.Hehadabeautiful
død
death,Godbepraised.”“Andeverything...?”
“FatherO’Rourkewasinwithhim
en
aTuesdayandanointedhimog
andpreparedhimandall.”“He
visste
knewthen?”“Hewasquiteresigned.”
“He
ser
looksquiteresigned,”saidmyaunt.“That’swhatthewomanwe
hadde
hadintowashhimsa
said.Shesaidhejust
så
lookedasifhewasasleep,heså
lookedthatpeacefulandresigned.Ingen
Noonewouldthinkhe’dgjøre
makesuchabeautifulcorpse.”“Yes,indeed,”
sa
saidmyaunt.Shesippedalittle
mer
morefromherglassandsa
said:.“Well,MissFlynn,atanyrateit
må
mustbeagreatcomfortforyoutovite
knowthatyoudidallyoukunne
couldforhim.Youwere
begge
bothverykindtohim,Imå
mustsay.”Elizasmoothedherdress
over
overherknees.“Ah,poorJames!”
she
sa
said.“Godknowswedoneallwe
kunne
could,aspoorasweare—wewouldn’tse
seehimwantanythingwhilehewasinit.”Nannie
hadde
hadleanedherheadagainstthesofa-pillowog
andseemedabouttofallasleep.“There’s
stakkars
poorNannie,”saidEliza,lookingathenne
her,“she’sworeout.Allthe
arbeidet
workwehad,sheandme,komme
gettinginthewomantowashhimog
andthenlayinghimoutog
andthenthecoffinandthenarrangingom
abouttheMassinthechapel.Bare
OnlyforFatherO’RourkeIdon’tvet
knowwhatwe’dhavedoneatall.Itwashimbroughtus
alle
allthemflowersandthemto
twocandlesticksoutofthechapelog
andwroteoutthenoticeforde
theFreeman’sGeneralandtookchargeofalle
allthepapersforthecemeteryog
andpoorJames’sinsurance.”“Wasn’t
det
thatgoodofhim?”saidmyaunt.
Eliza
lukket
closedhereyesandshookherhodet
headslowly.“Ah,there’snofriendslike
de
theoldfriends,”shesaid,“whenalt
allissaidanddone,ingen
nofriendsthatabodykan
cantrust.”“Indeed,that’strue,”
sa
saidmyaunt.“AndI’m
sikker
surenowthathe’sgonetohiseternalrewardhewon’tglemme
forgetyouandallyourkindnesstohim.”“Ah,
stakkars
poorJames!”saidEliza.
“Hewasnogreat
trøbbel
troubletous.Youwouldn’t
høre
hearhiminthehouseanymer
morethannow.Still,I
vet
knowhe’sgoneandalltothat....”“It’s
når
whenit’salloverthatyou’llmisshim,”sa
saidmyaunt.“Iknowthat,”
sa
saidEliza.“Iwon’tbe
bringe
bringinghiminhiscupofbeef-teaanymore,noryou,ma’am,sende
sendinghimhissnuff.Ah,
stakkars
poorJames!”Shestopped,as
om
ifshewerecommuningwiththefortiden
pastandthensaidshrewdly:.“Mindyou,Inoticed
det
therewassomethingqueercomingover
overhimlatterly.WheneverI’d
brakte
bringinhissouptohimder
thereI’dfindhimwithhisbreviaryfalt
fallentothefloor,lyingtilbake
backinthechairandhismouthopen.”Shelaid
en
afingeragainsthernoseog
andfrowned:thenshecontinued:.
“But
fortsatt
stillandallhekeptonsi
sayingthatbeforethesummerwasover
overhe’dgooutforadriveonefin
finedayjusttoseethegamle
oldhouseagainwherewewereallbornned
downinIrishtownandtakemeog
andNanniewithhim.Ifwe
kunne
couldonlygetoneofthemnew-fangledcarriagesthatgjør
makesnonoisethatFatherO’Rourketoldhimabout,themmed
withtherheumaticwheels,forde
thedaycheap—hesaid,atJohnnyRush’sover
overthewaythereandkjøre
driveoutthethreeofussammen
togetherofaSundayevening.He
hadde
hadhismindsetondet
that....PoorJames!”
“TheLord
ha
havemercyonhissoul!”sa
saidmyaunt.Elizatook
ut
outherhandkerchiefandwipedhereyesmed
withit.Thensheputit
tilbake
backagaininherpocketog
andgazedintotheemptygratefornoen
sometimewithoutspeaking.