I
Inmyyounger
en
andmorevulnerableyearsmyvader
fathergavemesomeadvicedat
thatI’vebeenturningoverinmymindeversince.“Wheneveryoufeellikecriticizinganyone,”he
zei
toldme,“justrememberthatalle
allthepeopleinthiswereld
worldhaven’thadtheadvantagesthatyou’vehad.”Hedidn’t
zei
sayanymore,butwe’vealtijd
alwaysbeenunusuallycommunicativeinareservedmanier
way,andIunderstoodthathebedoelde
meantagreatdealmoredan
thanthat.Inconsequence,I’minclinedtoreserve
alle
alljudgements,ahabitthatheeft
hasopenedupmanycuriousnaturestomeen
andalsomademethevictimofnoteen
afewveteranbores.Theabnormal
geest
mindisquicktodetecten
andattachitselftothisqualitywanneer
whenitappearsinanormalpersoon
person,andsoitcameaboutdat
thatincollegeIwasunjustlyaccusedofbeingeen
apolitician,becauseIwasprivytothesecretgriefsofwild,unknownmen.Meeste
Mostoftheconfidenceswereunsought—frequentlyIheb
havefeignedsleep,preoccupation,orahostilelevitytoen
whenIrealizedbysomeunmistakableteken
signthatanintimaterevelationwasquiveringonde
thehorizon;fortheintimaterevelationsof
jonge
youngmen,oratleastde
thetermsinwhichtheyexpressthem,areusuallyplagiaristicen
andmarredbyobvioussuppressions.Reservingjudgementsis
een
amatterofinfinitehope.Iam
nog steeds
stillalittleafraidofmissen
missingsomethingifIforgetdat
that,asmyfathersnobbishlysuggested,en
andIsnobbishlyrepeat,asenseofde
thefundamentaldecenciesisparcelledoutunequallyatbirth.En
And,afterboastingthiswayofmytolerance,Ikom
cometotheadmissionthatithaseen
alimit.Conductmaybefoundedonthe
harde
hardrockorthewetmarshes,maar
butafteracertainpointIdon’tschelen
carewhatit’sfoundedon.Toen
WhenIcamebackfromtheEastafgelopen
lastautumnIfeltthatIwilde
wantedtheworldtobeinuniformen
andatasortofmoralattentionforever;I
wilde
wantednomoreriotousexcursionsmet
withprivilegedglimpsesintothemenselijk
humanheart.OnlyGatsby,the
man
manwhogiveshisnametodit
thisbook,wasexemptfrommyreaction—Gatsby,whorepresentedalles
everythingforwhichIhaveeen
anunaffectedscorn.Ifpersonalityisanunbrokenseriesofsuccessfulgestures,then
er
therewassomethinggorgeousabouthem
him,someheightenedsensitivitytothepromisesofleven
life,asifhewererelatedtooneofthoseintricatemachinesthatregisterearthquakestenthousandmilesaway.Deze
Thisresponsivenesshadnothingtodomet
withthatflabbyimpressionabilitywhichisdignifiedonder
underthenameofthe“creativetemperament”—itwasanextraordinarygiftforhoop
hope,aromanticreadinesssuchasIheb
haveneverfoundinanyotherpersoon
personandwhichitisnotlikelyIshallevervinden
findagain.No—Gatsbyturnedoutallrightat
het
theend;itiswhatpreyedonGatsby,whatfouldustfloatedinthe
nasleep
wakeofhisdreamsthattemporarilyclosedoutmyinterestintheabortivesorrowsen
andshort-windedelationsofmen.My
familie
familyhavebeenprominent,well-to-dovolk
peopleinthisMiddleWesternstad
cityforthreegenerations.TheCarrawaysaresomethingof
een
aclan,andwehaveeen
atraditionthatwe’redescendedfromde
theDukesofBuccleuch,butde
theactualfounderofmylijn
linewasmygrandfather’sbrother,whokwam
camehereinfifty-one,senteen
asubstitutetotheCivilWar,en
andstartedthewholesalehardwarebedrijf
businessthatmyfathercarriesonvandaag
today.Ineversawthisgreat-uncle,
maar
butI’msupposedtolooklikehim—withspeciale
specialreferencetotheratherhard-boiledpaintingdat
thathangsinfather’soffice.IgraduatedfromNewHavenin1915,just
een
aquarterofacenturyna
aftermyfather,andalittlelater
laterIparticipatedinthatdelayedTeutonicmigrationknownasde
theGreatWar.Ienjoyed
de
thecounter-raidsothoroughlythatIcamebackrestless.Insteadofbeingthewarmcentreofthe
wereld
world,theMiddleWestnowseemedliketheraggededgeoftheuniverse—soIdecidedtogaan
goEastandlearnthebondbusiness.Iedereen
EverybodyIknewwasinthebondbusiness,soIsupposeditkon
couldsupportonemoresingleman.Al
Allmyauntsandunclespraatten
talkeditoverasiftheywerechoosingeen
aprepschoolforme,en
andfinallysaid,“Why—ye-es,”withzeer
verygrave,hesitantfaces.Fatheragreedtofinancemefor
een
ayear,andaftervariousdelaysIkwam
cameEast,permanently,Ithought,inthespringoftwenty-two.Thepracticalthingwasto
vinden
findroomsinthecity,maar
butitwasawarmseason,en
andIhadjustlefteen
acountryofwidelawnsen
andfriendlytrees,sowheneen
ayoungmanatthekantoor
officesuggestedthatwetakeeen
ahousetogetherinacommutingtown,itklonk
soundedlikeagreatidea.He
vond
foundthehouse,aweather-beatencardboardbungalowateightyeen
amonth,butatthelaatste
lastminutethefirmorderedhimtoWashington,en
andIwentouttohet
thecountryalone.Ihadadog—atleastI
had
hadhimforafewdaystotdat
untilheranaway—andanoude
oldDodgeandaFinnishvrouw
woman,whomademybeden
andcookedbreakfastandmutteredFinnishwisdomtoherselfover
overtheelectricstove.Itwaslonelyfora
dag
dayorsountiloneochtend
morningsomeman,morerecentlyarriveddan
thanI,stoppedmeontheroad.“HowdoyougettoWestEggvillage?”
he
vroeg
askedhelplessly.Itoldhim.
En
AndasIwalkedonIwaslonelynolonger.Iwasaguide,apathfinder,anoriginalsettler.
He
had
hadcasuallyconferredonmede
thefreedomoftheneighbourhood.En
Andsowiththesunshineen
andthegreatburstsofleavesgrowingonthetrees,net
justasthingsgrowinfastmovies,Ihad
hadthatfamiliarconvictionthatleven
lifewasbeginningoveragainmet
withthesummer.Therewasso
veel
muchtoread,foronething,en
andsomuchfinehealthtobepulleddownuit
outoftheyoungbreath-givinglucht
air.Iboughtadozenvolumesonbanking
en
andcreditandinvestmentsecurities,en
andtheystoodonmyshelfinrood
redandgoldlikenewgeld
moneyfromthemint,promisingtounfoldde
theshiningsecretsthatonlyMidasen
andMorganandMaecenasknew.En
AndIhadthehighintentionoflezen
readingmanyotherbooksbesides.Iwasratherliteraryincollege—one
jaar
yearIwroteaseriesofzeer
verysolemnandobviouseditorialsforde
theYaleNews—andnowIwasgoingtobringbackallsuchthingsintomyleven
lifeandbecomeagainthatmeest
mostlimitedofallspecialists,de
the“well-roundedman.”Thisisn’t
alleen
justanepigram—lifeismuchmoresuccessfullylookedatfromasinglewindow,afterall.Itwasamatterof
toeval
chancethatIshouldhaverentedahuis
houseinoneofthestrangestcommunitiesinNorthAmerica.Itwason
dat
thatslenderriotousislandwhichextendsitselfdueeastofNewYork—andwaar
wherethereare,amongothernaturalcuriosities,twee
twounusualformationsofland.Twentymilesfromthe
stad
cityapairofenormouseggs,identicalincontouren
andseparatedonlybyacourtesybay,jutoutintothemeest
mostdomesticatedbodyofsaltwaterintheWesternhemisphere,thegrote
greatwetbarnyardofLongIslandSound.Theyarenot
perfect
perfectovals—liketheeggintheColumbusverhaal
story,theyarebothcrushedflatatthecontactend—buttheirphysicalresemblancemoet
mustbeasourceofperpetualwondertothegullsdie
thatflyoverhead.Tothewingless
een
amoreinterestingphenomenonistheirdissimilarityinelk
everyparticularexceptshapeandsize.I
woonde
livedatWestEgg,the—well,thelessfashionableofthetwee
two,thoughthisisamostsuperficialtagtoexpressthebizarreen
andnotalittlesinistercontrasttussen
betweenthem.Myhousewasattheverytipoftheegg,onlyfiftyyardsfromtheSound,
en
andsqueezedbetweentwohugeplaatsen
placesthatrentedfortwelveof
orfifteenthousandaseason.Theoneonmyrightwasacolossalaffairbyanystandard—itwasafactualimitationofsomeHôteldeVilleinNormandy,
met
withatowerononekant
side,spankingnewunderathinbeardofrawivy,en
andamarbleswimmingpool,en
andmorethanfortyacresoflawnen
andgarden.ItwasGatsby’smansion.
Of
Or,rather,asIdidn’tkende
knowMr.Gatsby,itwaseen
amansioninhabitedbyagentlemanofdie
thatname.Myownhousewasaneyesore,
maar
butitwasasmalleyesore,en
andithadbeenoverlooked,soIhad
hadaviewofthewater
water,apartialviewofmyneighbour’slawn,en
andtheconsolingproximityofmillionaires—allforeightydollarsamonth.Acrossthecourtesybaythe
witte
whitepalacesoffashionableEastEggglitteredlangs
alongthewater,andthehistoryofthesummerecht
reallybeginsontheeveningIdroveovertheretohaveeten
dinnerwiththeTomBuchanans.Daisywasmy
tweede
secondcousinonceremoved,andI’dkende
knownTomincollege.Andjust
na
afterthewarIspenttwee
twodayswiththeminChicago.Her
man
husband,amongvariousphysicalaccomplishments,hadbeenoneofde
themostpowerfulendsthateverspeelde
playedfootballatNewHaven—anationalfigureinamanier
way,oneofthosemenwhoreachsuchanacutelimitedexcellenceattwenty-onethatalles
everythingafterwardsavoursofanticlimax.His
familie
familywereenormouslywealthy—evenincollegehisfreedommet
withmoneywasamatterforreproach—butnu
nowhe’dleftChicagoandgekomen
comeEastinafashiondie
thatrathertookyourbreathaway:forinstance,he’dbroughtdown
een
astringofpoloponiesfromLakeForest.Itwas
moeilijk
hardtorealizethataman
maninmyowngenerationwaswealthygenoeg
enoughtodothat.Whythey
kwamen
cameEastIdon’tknow.They
hadden
hadspentayearinFrancefornoparticularreden
reason,andthendriftedhereen
andthereunrestfullywhereverpeoplespeelden
playedpoloandwererichsamen
together.Thiswasapermanentmove,
zei
saidDaisyoverthetelephone,maar
butIdidn’tbelieveit—Ihad
hadnosightintoDaisy’shart
heart,butIfeltthatTomzou
woulddriftonforeverseeking,een
alittlewistfully,forthedramaticturbulenceofsomeirrecoverablefootballgame.En
Andsoithappenedthatoneen
awarmwindyeveningIdroveovertoEastEggtozien
seetwooldfriendswhomIscarcelykende
knewatall.Theirhousewasevenmoreelaborate
dan
thanIexpected,acheerfulred-and-whiteGeorgianColonialmansion,overlookingde
thebay.Thelawnstartedatthebeach
en
andrantowardsthefrontdoorforeen
aquarterofamile,jumpingover
oversundialsandbrickwalksen
andburninggardens—finallywhenitreachedthehuis
housedriftingupthesideinbrightvinesasthoughfromthemomentumofitsliep
run.Thefrontwasbrokenby
een
alineofFrenchwindows,glowingnu
nowwithreflectedgoldandwideopen
opentothewarmwindyafternoon,en
andTomBuchananinridingclotheswasstond
standingwithhislegsapartonde
thefrontporch.Hehad
veranderd
changedsincehisNewHavenyears.Nu
Nowhewasasturdystraw-hairedman
manofthirty,witharatherharde
hardmouthandasuperciliousmanner.Twee
Twoshiningarroganteyeshadestablisheddominanceover
overhisfaceandgavehimtheappearanceofaltijd
alwaysleaningaggressivelyforward.Not
zelfs
eventheeffeminateswankofhisridingclotheskon
couldhidetheenormouspowerofthatbody—heseemedtofillthoseglisteningbootstotdat
untilhestrainedthetoplacing,en
andyoucouldseeagroot
greatpackofmuscleshiftingtoen
whenhisshouldermovedunderhisthincoat.Itwas
een
abodycapableofenormousleverage—acruellichaam
body.Hisspeakingvoice,agruffhuskytenor,addedto
de
theimpressionoffractiousnessheconveyed.Er
Therewasatouchofpaternalcontemptinit,zelfs
eventowardpeopleheliked—ander
thereweremenatNewHavendie
whohadhatedhisguts.“Now,don’tthinkmyopiniononthesemattersisfinal,”heseemedto
zeggen
say,“justbecauseI’mstrongeren
andmoreofamandan
thanyouare.”Wewerein
de
thesameseniorsociety,andwhilewewerenooit
neverintimateIalwayshadde
theimpressionthatheapprovedofmeen
andwantedmetolikehimmet
withsomeharsh,defiantwistfulnessofhiseigen
own.Wetalkedfora
paar
fewminutesonthesunnyporch.“I’vegot
een
aniceplacehere,”hezei
said,hiseyesflashingaboutrestlessly.Draaide
Turningmearoundbyonearm,hebewoog
movedabroadflathandlangs
alongthefrontvista,includinginitssweepasunkenItaliangarden,ahalve
halfacreofdeep,pungentroses,en
andasnub-nosedmotorboatthatbumpedthetideoffshore.“ItbelongedtoDemaine,theoilman.”
He
draaide
turnedmearoundagain,politelyen
andabruptly.“We’llgoinside.”
We
liepen
walkedthroughahighhallwayintoeen
abrightrosy-colouredspace,fragilelyboundintohet
thehousebyFrenchwindowsateitherend.Thewindowswereajar
en
andgleamingwhiteagainstthefreshgrassbuiten
outsidethatseemedtogroween
alittlewayintothehuis
house.Abreezeblewthroughthe
kamer
room,blewcurtainsinatoneenden
andouttheotherlikepaleflags,twistingthemuptowardthefrostedwedding-cakeoftheceiling,en
andthenrippledoverthewine-colouredrug,makingashadowonitaswinddoet
doesonthesea.The
enige
onlycompletelystationaryobjectinthekamer
roomwasanenormouscouchonwhichtwee
twoyoungwomenwerebuoyedupasthoughuponeen
ananchoredballoon.Theywere
allebei
bothinwhite,andtheirdresseswereripplingen
andflutteringasiftheyhadnet
justbeenblownbackinna
afterashortflightaroundhet
thehouse.Imusthave
gestaan
stoodforafewmomentsgeluisterd
listeningtothewhipandsnapofthecurtainsen
andthegroanofapictureonthewall.Then
er
therewasaboomasTomBuchanansloot
shuttherearwindowsandde
thecaughtwinddiedoutover
abouttheroom,andthecurtainsen
andtherugsandthetwee
twoyoungwomenballoonedslowlytode
thefloor.Theyoungerof
de
thetwowasastrangertomij
me.Shewasextendedfulllengthather
einde
endofthedivan,completelymotionless,en
andwithherchinraisedeen
alittle,asifshewerebalancingiets
somethingonitwhichwasheel
quitelikelytofall.Ifshe
zag
sawmeoutofthecornerofhereyesshegaf
gavenohintofit—indeed,Iwasbijna
almostsurprisedintomurmuringanapologyforhad
havingdisturbedherbycomingin.The
andere
othergirl,Daisy,madeanattempttorise—sheleanedslightlyforwardmet
withaconscientiousexpression—thenshelaughed,anabsurd,charmingkleine
littlelaugh,andIlaughedtooen
andcameforwardintothekamer
room.“I’mp-paralysedwithhappiness.”
Shelaughed
weer
again,asifshesaidiets
somethingverywitty,andheldmyhand
handforamoment,lookingupintomygezicht
face,promisingthattherewasnooneinthewereld
worldshesomuchwantedtozien
see.Thatwasawayshe
had
had.Shehintedinamurmur
dat
thatthesurnameofthebalancingmeisje
girlwasBaker.(I’vehearditsaid
dat
thatDaisy’smurmurwasonlytomakemensen
peopleleantowardher;anirrelevantcriticism
die
thatmadeitnolesscharming.)Atanyrate,MissBaker’slipsfluttered,shenoddedatme
bijna
almostimperceptibly,andthenquicklytippedherhoofd
headbackagain—theobjectshewasbalancinghad
hadobviouslytotteredalittleen
andgivenhersomethingofafright.Opnieuw
Againasortofapologyarosetomylips.Bijna
Almostanyexhibitionofcompleteself-sufficiencydrawsastunnedtributefrommij
me.Ilookedbackatmycousin,
die
whobegantoaskmequestionsinherlow,thrillingvoice.Itwasthe
soort
kindofvoicethattheearvolgt
followsupanddown,asifelke
eachspeechisanarrangementofnotesthatzal
willneverbeplayedagain.Her
gezicht
facewassadandlovelymet
withbrightthingsinit,brighteyesen
andabrightpassionatemouth,maar
buttherewasanexcitementinhervoicethatmenwhohadden
hadcaredforherfounddifficulttovergeten
forget:asingingcompulsion,awhispered“Listen,”
een
apromisethatshehadgedaan
donegay,excitingthingsjusteen
awhilesinceandthater
thereweregay,excitingthingshoveringinhet
thenexthour.ItoldherhowI
hadden
hadstoppedoffinChicagoforeen
adayonmywayEast,en
andhowadozenpeoplehadden
hadsenttheirlovethroughmij
me.“Dotheymissme?”
shecriedecstatically.
“The
hele
wholetownisdesolate.Allthecars
hebben
havetheleftrearwheelpaintedblackaseen
amourningwreath,andthere’seen
apersistentwailallnightlangs
alongthenorthshore.”“Howgorgeous!
Let’sgoback,Tom.
Tomorrow!”
Thensheaddedirrelevantly:
“Yououghtto
zien
seethebaby.”“I’dliketo.”
“She’sasleep.
She’s
drie
threeyearsold.Haven’tyouever
gezien
seenher?”“Never.”
“Well,yououghtto
zien
seeher.She’s—”.
TomBuchanan,
die
whohadbeenhoveringrestlesslyaboutde
theroom,stoppedandrestedhishand
handonmyshoulder.“Whatyou
doe
doing,Nick?”“I’mabondman.”
“Whowith?”
I
verteld
toldhim.“Neverheardofthem,”heremarkeddecisively.
Dit
Thisannoyedme.“Youwill,”Iansweredshortly.
“Youwill
als
ifyoustayintheEast.”“Oh,I’ll
blijf
stayintheEast,don’tyouworry,”hezei
said,glancingatDaisyandthenbackatmij
me,asifhewerealertforiets
somethingmore.“I’dbeaGoddamnedfoolto
wonen
liveanywhereelse.”Atthis
punt
pointMissBakersaid:“Absolutely!”
withsuchsuddenness
dat
thatIstarted—itwastheeerste
firstwordshehadutteredsinds
sinceIcameintothekamer
room.Evidentlyitsurprisedheras
veel
muchasitdidme,forsheyawneden
andwithaseriesofrapid,deftmovementsstond
stoodupintotheroom.“I’mstiff,”shecomplained,“I’vebeen
lig
lyingonthatsofaforaslang
longasIcanremember.”“Don’tlookatme,”Daisyretorted,“I’vebeen
geprobeerd
tryingtogetyoutoNewYorkallafternoon.”“No,thanks,”
zei
saidMissBakertothevier
fourcocktailsjustinfromde
thepantry.“I’mabsolutelyintraining.”
Herhost
keek
lookedatherincredulously.“Youare!”
He
nam
tookdownhisdrinkasifitwereeen
adropinthebottomofeen
aglass.“Howyouever
krijgt
getanythingdoneisbeyondme.”I
keek
lookedatMissBaker,wonderingwhatitwasshe“gotdone.”Ienjoyed
kijken
lookingather.Shewasaslender,small-breasted
meisje
girl,withanerectcarriage,die
whichsheaccentuatedbythrowingherlichaam
bodybackwardattheshouldersals
likeayoungcadet.Hergreysun-strainedeyes
keken
lookedbackatmewithpolitereciprocalcuriosityuit
outofawan,charming,discontentedgezicht
face.Itoccurredtome
nu
nowthatIhadseenhaar
her,orapictureofhaar
her,somewherebefore.“YouliveinWestEgg,”sheremarkedcontemptuously.
“I
ken
knowsomebodythere.”“Idon’t
ken
knowasingle—”.“Youmust
kennen
knowGatsby.”“Gatsby?”
demandedDaisy.
“WhatGatsby?”
Voordat
BeforeIcouldreplythathewasmyneighbourdiner
dinnerwasannounced;wedginghistensearmimperativelyundermine,TomBuchanancompelledmefrom
de
theroomasthoughhewereverplaatste
movingacheckertoanothersquare.Slenderly,languidly,theirhandssetlightlyontheirhips,
de
thetwoyoungwomenprecededusoutontoeen
arosy-colouredporch,opentowardde
thesunset,wherefourcandlesflickeredonde
thetableinthediminishedwind.“Whycandles?”
objectedDaisy,frowning.
Shesnappedthemout
met
withherfingers.“Intwoweeksit’llbethelongest
dag
dayintheyear.”She
keek
lookedatusallradiantly.“Doyou
altijd
alwayswatchforthelongestdag
dayoftheyearandthenmis
missit?Ialwayswatchforthelongest
dag
dayintheyearandthenmis
missit.”“Weoughttoplansomething,”yawnedMissBaker,
zit
sittingdownatthetableasifsheweregettingintobed
bed.“Allright,”saidDaisy.
“What’llweplan?”
She
draaide
turnedtomehelplessly:“Whatdo
mensen
peopleplan?”BeforeIcouldanswerhereyesfastened
met
withanawedexpressiononherlittlefinger.“Look!”
shecomplained;
“I
gekwetst
hurtit.”Wealllooked—theknucklewasblack
en
andblue.“Youdidit,Tom,”she
zei
saidaccusingly.“Iknowyoudidn’tmeanto,
maar
butyoudiddoit.That’swhatI
krijg
getformarryingabruteofeen
aman,agreat,big,hulkingphysicalspecimenofa—”.“I
haat
hatethatword‘hulking,’ ”objectedTomcrossly,“eveninkidding.”“Hulking,”insistedDaisy.
Soms
SometimessheandMissBakertalkedatonce,unobtrusivelyen
andwithabanteringinconsequencedie
thatwasneverquitechatter,die
thatwasascoolastheirwitte
whitedressesandtheirimpersonaleyesinde
theabsenceofalldesire.Theywere
hier
here,andtheyacceptedTomen
andme,makingonlyapolitepleasantefforttoentertainof
ortobeentertained.They
wisten
knewthatpresentlydinnerwouldbeoveren
andalittlelatertheeveningtoozou
wouldbeoverandcasuallyputaway.ItwassharplydifferentfromtheWest,
waar
whereaneveningwashurriedfromphasetophasetowardsitsclose,inacontinuallydisappointedanticipationof
orelseinsheernervousdreadofthemoment
momentitself.“Youmakeme
voel
feeluncivilized,Daisy,”Iconfessedonmytweede
secondglassofcorkybutratherimpressiveclaret.“Can’tyou
praten
talkaboutcropsorsomething?”I
bedoelde
meantnothinginparticularbydeze
thisremark,butitwastakenupineen
anunexpectedway.“Civilization’sgoingtopieces,”
brak
brokeoutTomviolently.“I’vegottentobe
een
aterriblepessimistaboutthings.Heb
HaveyoureadTheRiseoftheColouredEmpiresbydeze
thismanGoddard?”“Why,no,”Ianswered,rathersurprisedbyhistone.
“Well,it’s
een
afinebook,andeverybodyoughttolezen
readit.Theideais
als
ifwedon’tlookouthet
thewhiteracewillbe—willbeutterlysubmerged.It’sallscientific
spul
stuff;it’sbeenproved.”