I
Inmyyounger
og
andmorevulnerableyearsmyfar
fathergavemesomeadvicethatI’vebeenturningoverinmysind
mindeversince.“Wheneveryoufeellikecriticizinganyone,”he
sagde
toldme,“justrememberthatallde
thepeopleinthisworldhaven’thadde
theadvantagesthatyou’vehad.”Hedidn’t
sagde
sayanymore,butwe’vealtid
alwaysbeenunusuallycommunicativeinen
areservedway,andIforstod
understoodthathemeantagreatdealmere
morethanthat.Inconsequence,I’minclinedtoreserve
alle
alljudgements,ahabitthathasopenedupmange
manycuriousnaturestomeog
andalsomademethevictimofnoten
afewveteranbores.Theabnormal
sind
mindisquicktodetectog
andattachitselftothisqualitynår
whenitappearsinanormalperson
person,andsoitcameaboutthatincollegeIwasunjustlyaccusedofbeingen
apolitician,becauseIwasprivytothesecretgriefsofwild,unknownmen.De fleste
Mostoftheconfidenceswereunsought—frequentlyIhar
havefeignedsleep,preoccupation,orahostilelevityda
whenIrealizedbysomeunmistakabletegn
signthatanintimaterevelationwasquiveringonde
thehorizon;fortheintimaterevelationsof
unge
youngmen,oratleastthetermsinwhichtheyexpressdem
them,areusuallyplagiaristicandmarredbyobvioussuppressions.Reservingjudgementsis
et
amatterofinfinitehope.Iam
stadig
stillalittleafraidofglip
missingsomethingifIforgetat
that,asmyfathersnobbishlysuggested,og
andIsnobbishlyrepeat,asenseofde
thefundamentaldecenciesisparcelledud
outunequallyatbirth.And,
efter
afterboastingthiswayofmytolerance,Ikommer
cometotheadmissionthatithasen
alimit.Conductmaybefoundedonthe
hårde
hardrockorthewetmarshes,men
butafteracertainpointIdon’tcarewhatit’sfoundedpå
on.WhenIcamebackfromtheEast
sidste
lastautumnIfeltthatIville
wantedtheworldtobeinuniformog
andatasortofmoralattentionforever;I
ville
wantednomoreriotousexcursionsmed
withprivilegedglimpsesintothemenneskelige
humanheart.OnlyGatsby,the
manden
manwhogiveshisnametodenne
thisbook,wasexemptfrommyreaction—Gatsby,whorepresentedalt
everythingforwhichIhaveen
anunaffectedscorn.Ifpersonalityisanunbrokenseriesofsuccessfulgestures,thentherewas
noget
somethinggorgeousabouthim,someheightenedsensitivitytothepromisesoflife,ashvis
ifhewererelatedtooneofthoseintricatemachinesthatregisterearthquakesti
tenthousandmilesaway.Thisresponsivenesshad
intet
nothingtodowiththatflabbyimpressionabilitywhichisdignifiedunder
underthenameofthe“creativetemperament”—itwasanextraordinarygiftforhåb
hope,aromanticreadinesssuchasIhar
haveneverfoundinanyanden
otherpersonandwhichitisnotlikelyIshalleverfinde
findagain.No—Gatsbyturnedoutallrightattheend;
itiswhatpreyedonGatsby,whatfouldustfloatedinthe
kølvandet
wakeofhisdreamsthattemporarilylukkede
closedoutmyinterestintheabortivesorrowsog
andshort-windedelationsofmen.My
familie
familyhavebeenprominent,well-to-domennesker
peopleinthisMiddleWesternby
cityforthreegenerations.TheCarrawaysare
noget
somethingofaclan,andwehar
haveatraditionthatwe’redescendedfromden
theDukesofBuccleuch,butden
theactualfounderofmylinje
linewasmygrandfather’sbrother,whokom
camehereinfifty-one,senten
asubstitutetotheCivilWar,og
andstartedthewholesalehardwareforretning
businessthatmyfathercarriesontoday.I
aldrig
neversawthisgreat-uncle,butI’msupposedtose
looklikehim—withspecialreferencetodet
theratherhard-boiledpaintingthathænger
hangsinfather’soffice.IgraduatedfromNewHavenin1915,
kun
justaquarterofacenturyefter
aftermyfather,andalidt
littlelaterIparticipatedinthatdelayedTeutonicmigrationkendt
knownastheGreatWar.Ienjoyedthecounter-raidsothoroughly
at
thatIcamebackrestless.Insteadofbeingthewarmcentreofthe
verden
world,theMiddleWestnowseemedsom
liketheraggededgeoftheuniverse—soIdecidedtogoEastog
andlearnthebondbusiness.Alle
EverybodyIknewwasinthebondbusiness,soIsupposeditkunne
couldsupportonemoresinglemand
man.Allmyauntsanduncles
talte
talkeditoverasiftheywerechoosingen
aprepschoolforme,og
andfinallysaid,“Why—ye-es,”withmeget
verygrave,hesitantfaces.Fatheragreedtofinancemefor
et
ayear,andaftervariousdelaysIkom
cameEast,permanently,Ithought,inthespringoftwenty-two.Thepracticalthingwasto
finde
findroomsinthecity,men
butitwasawarmseason,og
andIhadjustleftaland
countryofwidelawnsandfriendlytrees,soda
whenayoungmanattheofficesuggestedthatwetog
takeahousetogetherinacommutingtown,itlød
soundedlikeagreatidea.He
fandt
foundthehouse,aweather-beatencardboardbungalowateightyen
amonth,butatthesidste
lastminutethefirmorderedhimtoWashington,og
andIwentouttothecountryalene
alone.Ihadadog—atleastI
havde
hadhimforafewdaysindtil
untilheranaway—andangammel
oldDodgeandaFinnishkvinde
woman,whomademybedog
andcookedbreakfastandmutteredFinnishwisdomtoherselfover
overtheelectricstove.Itwaslonelyfora
dag
dayorsountilonemorgen
morningsomeman,morerecentlyarrivedend
thanI,stoppedmeontheroad.“Howdoyou
kommer
gettoWestEggvillage?”he
spurgte
askedhelplessly.Itoldhim.
Og
AndasIwalkedonIwaslonelyikke
nolonger.Iwasaguide,apathfinder,anoriginalsettler.
He
havde
hadcasuallyconferredonmethefreedomoftheneighbourhood.Og
Andsowiththesunshineog
andthegreatburstsofleavesgrowingonthetrees,justasthingsgrowinfastmovies,Ihavde
hadthatfamiliarconvictionthatlifewasbeginningoveragainmed
withthesummer.Therewasso
meget
muchtoread,foronething,og
andsomuchfinehealthtobepulledned
downoutoftheyoungbreath-givingluft
air.Iboughtadozenvolumesonbanking
og
andcreditandinvestmentsecurities,og
andtheystoodonmyshelfinrødt
redandgoldlikenewpenge
moneyfromthemint,promisingtounfoldtheshiningsecretsthatkun
onlyMidasandMorganandMaecenaskendte
knew.AndIhadthe
høje
highintentionofreadingmanyandre
otherbooksbesides.Iwasratherliteraryincollege—one
år
yearIwroteaseriesofmeget
verysolemnandobviouseditorialsforden
theYaleNews—andnowIwasgoingtobringe
bringbackallsuchthingsintomyliv
lifeandbecomeagainthatmest
mostlimitedofallspecialists,den
the“well-roundedman.”Thisisn’t
bare
justanepigram—lifeismuchmere
moresuccessfullylookedatfromasinglewindow,afteralt
all.Itwasamatterofchance
at
thatIshouldhaverentedahus
houseinoneofthestrangestcommunitiesinNorthAmerica.ItwasonthatslenderriotousislandwhichextendsitselfdueeastofNewYork—andwherethereare,among
andre
othernaturalcuriosities,twounusualformationsofland.Twentymilesfrom
den
thecityapairofenormouseggs,identicalincontourog
andseparatedonlybyacourtesybay,jutud
outintothemostdomesticatedkrop
bodyofsaltwaterinden
theWesternhemisphere,thegreatwetbarnyardofLongIslandSound.Theyarenotperfectovals—liketheeggintheColumbus
historie
story,theyarebothcrushedflatatthecontactend—buttheirphysicalresemblancemå
mustbeasourceofperpetualwondertothegullsder
thatflyoverhead.Tothewingless
et
amoreinterestingphenomenonistheirdissimilarityinalle
everyparticularexceptshapeandsize.IlivedatWestEgg,the—well,thelessfashionableofthe
to
two,thoughthisisamest
mostsuperficialtagtoexpressthebizarreog
andnotalittlesinistercontrastmellem
betweenthem.Myhousewasattheverytipoftheegg,
kun
onlyfiftyyardsfromtheSound,og
andsqueezedbetweentwohugeplacesder
thatrentedfortwelveorfifteenthousanden
aseason.Theoneonmy
højre
rightwasacolossalaffairbyenhver
anystandard—itwasafactualimitationofnogle
someHôteldeVilleinNormandy,med
withatowerononeside
side,spankingnewunderathinbeardofrawivy,og
andamarbleswimmingpool,og
andmorethanfortyacresoflawnog
andgarden.ItwasGatsby’smansion.
Eller
Or,rather,asIdidn’tkendte
knowMr.Gatsby,itwasamansioninhabitedbyagentlemanofthatnavn
name.Myownhousewasaneyesore,
men
butitwasasmalleyesore,og
andithadbeenoverlooked,soIhavde
hadaviewofthevandet
water,apartialviewofmyneighbour’slawn,og
andtheconsolingproximityofmillionaires—allforeightydollarsamonth.AcrossthecourtesybaythewhitepalacesoffashionableEastEggglittered
langs
alongthewater,andthehistoryofthesummerreallybeginsontheeveningIkørte
droveovertheretohavemiddag
dinnerwiththeTomBuchanans.Daisywasmy
anden
secondcousinonceremoved,andI’dknownTomincollege.Og
AndjustafterthewarIspentto
twodayswiththeminChicago.Her
mand
husband,amongvariousphysicalaccomplishments,havde
hadbeenoneofthemest
mostpowerfulendsthateverspillede
playedfootballatNewHaven—anationalfigureinamåde
way,oneofthosemenwhoreachsådan
suchanacutelimitedexcellenceattwenty-onethatalt
everythingafterwardsavoursofanticlimax.His
familie
familywereenormouslywealthy—evenincollegehisfreedommed
withmoneywasamatterforreproach—butnu
nowhe’dleftChicagoandkommet
comeEastinafashionder
thatrathertookyourbreathvæk
away:forinstance,he’dbroughtdown
en
astringofpoloponiesfromLakeForest.Itwas
svært
hardtorealizethatamand
maninmyowngenerationwaswealthynok
enoughtodothat.Whythey
kom
cameEastIdon’tknow.They
havde
hadspentayearinFrancefornoparticulargrund
reason,andthendriftedhereog
andthereunrestfullywhereverpeoplespillede
playedpoloandwererichsammen
together.Thiswasapermanentmove,
sagde
saidDaisyoverthetelephone,men
butIdidn’tbelieveit—Ihadikke
nosightintoDaisy’sheart,men
butIfeltthatTomville
woulddriftonforeverseeking,alidt
littlewistfully,forthedramaticturbulenceofsomeirrecoverablefootballgame.Og
Andsoithappenedthatonen
awarmwindyeveningIkørte
droveovertoEastEggtose
seetwooldfriendswhomIscarcelykendte
knewatall.Theirhousewas
endnu
evenmoreelaboratethanIexpected,et
acheerfulred-and-whiteGeorgianColonialmansion,overlookingthebay.Thelawn
startede
startedatthebeachandløb
rantowardsthefrontdoorforen
aquarterofamile,jumpingover
oversundialsandbrickwalksog
andburninggardens—finallywhenitreachedthehuset
housedriftingupthesideinbrightvinesasthoughfromthemomentumofitsløb
run.Thefrontwasbrokenby
en
alineofFrenchwindows,glowingnu
nowwithreflectedgoldandwideåbent
opentothewarmwindyafternoon,og
andTomBuchananinridingclotheswasstod
standingwithhislegsapartonden
thefrontporch.Hehadchanged
siden
sincehisNewHavenyears.Nu
Nowhewasasturdystraw-hairedmand
manofthirty,witharatherhård
hardmouthandasuperciliousmanner.To
Twoshiningarroganteyeshadestablisheddominanceover
overhisfaceandgavehimtheappearanceofaltid
alwaysleaningaggressivelyforward.Not
engang
eventheeffeminateswankofhisridingclotheskunne
couldhidetheenormouspowerofthatbody—heseemedtofilldisse
thoseglisteningbootsuntilhestrainedden
thetoplacing,andyoukunne
couldseeagreatpackofmuscleshiftingnår
whenhisshouldermovedunderhisthincoat.Itwas
en
abodycapableofenormousleverage—acruelkrop
body.Hisspeakingvoice,agruffhuskytenor,addedtotheimpressionoffractiousnessheconveyed.
Therewas
en
atouchofpaternalcontemptindet
it,eventowardpeopleheliked—andthereweremenatNewHavenwhohavde
hadhatedhisguts.“Now,don’tthinkmyopinionon
disse
thesemattersisfinal,”heseemedtosige
say,“justbecauseI’mstrongerog
andmoreofamanend
thanyouare.”Wewereinthe
samme
sameseniorsociety,andwhilewewerealdrig
neverintimateIalwayshadtheimpressionthatheapprovedofmeog
andwantedmetolikehimmed
withsomeharsh,defiantwistfulnessofhisegen
own.Wetalkedfora
par
fewminutesonthesunnyporch.“I’vegot
et
aniceplacehere,”hesagde
said,hiseyesflashingaboutrestlessly.Turningmearoundbyonearm,he
bevægede
movedabroadflathandlangs
alongthefrontvista,includinginitssweepasunkenItaliangarden,ahalv
halfacreofdeep,pungentroses,og
andasnub-nosedmotorboatthatbumpedden
thetideoffshore.“ItbelongedtoDemaine,theoilman.”
Heturnedmearound
igen
again,politelyandabruptly.“We’ll
går
goinside.”Wewalkedthrougha
høj
highhallwayintoabrightrosy-colouredspace,fragilelyboundintothehuset
housebyFrenchwindowsateitherend.Det
Thewindowswereajarandgleamingwhitemod
againstthefreshgrassoutsidethatseemedtogrowen
alittlewayintothehuset
house.Abreezeblewthroughtheroom,blewcurtainsinatone
ende
endandouttheotherlikepaleflags,twistingthemop
uptowardthefrostedwedding-cakeoftheceiling,og
andthenrippledoverthewine-colouredrug,gør
makingashadowonitaswindgør
doesonthesea.The
eneste
onlycompletelystationaryobjectinden
theroomwasanenormouscouchonwhichto
twoyoungwomenwerebuoyedop
upasthoughuponananchoredballoon.Theywere
begge
bothinwhite,andtheirdresseswereripplingog
andflutteringasiftheyhadlige
justbeenblownbackinefter
afterashortflightaroundthehuset
house.Imusthavestoodfor
et
afewmomentslisteningtothewhipog
andsnapofthecurtainsog
andthegroanofapictureonthewall.Then
der
therewasaboomasTomBuchananlukkede
shuttherearwindowsandthefangede
caughtwinddiedoutabouttheroom,og
andthecurtainsandtherugsog
andthetwoyoungwomenballoonedslowlytothefloor.Theyoungerofthe
to
twowasastrangertomig
me.Shewasextendedfulllengthather
ende
endofthedivan,completelymotionless,og
andwithherchinraisedalidt
little,asifshewerebalancingnoget
somethingonitwhichwasquitelikelytofalde
fall.Ifshesawme
ud
outofthecornerofhereyesshegav
gavenohintofit—indeed,Iwasnæsten
almostsurprisedintomurmuringanapologyforhave
havingdisturbedherbycomingin.Den
Theothergirl,Daisy,madeanattempttorise—sheleanedslightlyforwardmed
withaconscientiousexpression—thenshelaughed,anabsurd,charminglittlelaugh,og
andIlaughedtooandkom
cameforwardintotheroom.“I’mp-paralysedwithhappiness.”
Shelaughed
igen
again,asifshesaidnoget
somethingverywitty,andheldmyhånd
handforamoment,lookingop
upintomyface,promisingthattherewasingen
nooneintheworldshesomuchønskede
wantedtosee.Thatwas
en
awayshehad.Shehintedin
en
amurmurthatthesurnameofthebalancinggirlwasBaker.(I’veheardit
sig
saidthatDaisy’smurmurwaskun
onlytomakepeopleleantowardhende
her;anirrelevantcriticismthat
gjorde
madeitnolesscharming.)Atanyrate,MissBaker’slipsfluttered,shenoddedatme
næsten
almostimperceptibly,andthenquicklytippedherheadtilbage
backagain—theobjectshewasbalancinghavde
hadobviouslytotteredalittleog
andgivenhersomethingofen
afright.Againasortofapologyarosetomylips.
Næsten
Almostanyexhibitionofcompleteself-sufficiencydrawsen
astunnedtributefromme.I
kiggede
lookedbackatmycousin,som
whobegantoaskmequestionsinherlow,thrillingvoice.Itwasthe
slags
kindofvoicethattheearfølger
followsupanddown,asifhver
eachspeechisanarrangementofnotesder
thatwillneverbeplayedigen
again.Herfacewassad
og
andlovelywithbrightthingsindet
it,brighteyesandabrightpassionatemouth,men
buttherewasanexcitementinhervoicethatmenwhohavde
hadcaredforherfounddifficulttoglemme
forget:asingingcompulsion,awhispered“Listen,”a
løfte
promisethatshehaddonegay,excitingthingslige
justawhilesinceandthatthereweregay,excitingthingshoveringinden
thenexthour.Itoldher
hvordan
howIhadstoppedoffinChicagoforadag
dayonmywayEast,og
andhowadozenpeoplehavde
hadsenttheirlovethroughme.“Dothey
savner
missme?”shecriedecstatically.
“The
hele
wholetownisdesolate.Allthecars
har
havetheleftrearwheelpaintedsort
blackasamourningwreath,og
andthere’sapersistentwailalle
allnightalongthenorthshore.”“Howgorgeous!
Let’s
gå
goback,Tom.Tomorrow!”
Thensheaddedirrelevantly:
“Yououghtto
se
seethebaby.”“I’dliketo.”
“She’sasleep.
She’s
tre
threeyearsold.Haven’tyouever
set
seenher?”“Never.”
“Well,yououghtto
se
seeher.She’s—”.
TomBuchanan,
der
whohadbeenhoveringrestlesslyabouttheroom,stoppede
stoppedandrestedhishandonmyshoulder.“Whatyou
laver
doing,Nick?”“I’mabondman.”
“Whowith?”
I
fortalt
toldhim.“Neverheardofthem,”heremarkeddecisively.
Thisannoyed
mig
me.“Youwill,”Iansweredshortly.
“You
vil
willifyoustayindet
theEast.”“Oh,I’llstayintheEast,don’tyouworry,”he
sagde
said,glancingatDaisyandthentilbage
backatme,asifhewerealertfornoget
somethingmore.“I’dbeaGoddamnedfooltoliveanywhereelse.”
At
dette
thispointMissBakersaid:“Absolutely!”
withsuchsuddennessthatIstarted—itwas
det
thefirstwordshehadutteredsiden
sinceIcameintotheroom.Evidentlyitsurprisedheras
meget
muchasitdidme,forsheyawnedog
andwithaseriesofrapid,deftmovementsstoodop
upintotheroom.“I’mstiff,”shecomplained,“I’vebeenlyingonthatsofaforas
længe
longasIcanremember.”“Don’tlookatme,”Daisyretorted,“I’vebeentryingto
få
getyoutoNewYorkallafternoon.”“No,thanks,”
sagde
saidMissBakertothefire
fourcocktailsjustinfromde
thepantry.“I’mabsolutelyintraining.”
Herhost
kiggede
lookedatherincredulously.“Youare!”
He
tog
tookdownhisdrinkasifitwereadropinthebottomofaglass.“Howyouever
får
getanythingdoneisbeyondme.”I
kiggede
lookedatMissBaker,wonderingwhatitwasshe“gotdone.”Ienjoyed
se
lookingather.Shewasaslender,small-breasted
pige
girl,withanerectcarriage,whichsheaccentuatedbythrowingherkrop
bodybackwardattheshoulderslikeaung
youngcadet.Hergreysun-strainedeyes
kiggede
lookedbackatmewithpolitereciprocalcuriosityud
outofawan,charming,discontentedansigt
face.Itoccurredtome
nu
nowthatIhadseenhende
her,orapictureofhende
her,somewherebefore.“YouliveinWestEgg,”sheremarkedcontemptuously.
“I
kender
knowsomebodythere.”“Idon’t
kender
knowasingle—”.“Youmust
kende
knowGatsby.”“Gatsby?”
demandedDaisy.
“WhatGatsby?”
Før
BeforeIcouldreplythathewasmyneighbourdinnerwasannounced;wedginghistensearmimperativelyundermine,TomBuchanancompelledmefromtheroomasthoughhewere
flyttede
movingacheckertoanothersquare.Slenderly,languidly,theirhandssetlightlyontheirhips,the
to
twoyoungwomenprecededusud
outontoarosy-colouredporch,åben
opentowardthesunset,wherefire
fourcandlesflickeredonthetableinthediminishedwind.“Whycandles?”
objectedDaisy,frowning.
Shesnappedthem
ud
outwithherfingers.“In
to
twoweeksit’llbethelongestdag
dayintheyear.”She
kiggede
lookedatusallradiantly.“Doyou
altid
alwayswatchforthelongestdag
dayoftheyearandthenglip
missit?Ialwayswatchforthelongest
dag
dayintheyearandthenglip
missit.”“Weoughtto
planlægge
plansomething,”yawnedMissBaker,sidde
sittingdownatthetableasifshewerekomme
gettingintobed.“Allright,”
sagde
saidDaisy.“What’llweplan?”
Sheturnedtomehelplessly:
“Whatdo
folk
peopleplan?”BeforeIcould
svare
answerhereyesfastenedwithen
anawedexpressiononherlittlefinger.“Look!”
shecomplained;
“I
såret
hurtit.”Wealllooked—theknucklewas
sort
blackandblue.“Youdid
det
it,Tom,”shesaidaccusingly.“I
ved
knowyoudidn’tmeanto,men
butyoudiddoit.That’swhatI
får
getformarryingabruteofen
aman,agreat,big,hulkingphysicalspecimenofa—”.“I
hader
hatethatword‘hulking,’ ”objectedTomcrossly,“eveninkidding.”“Hulking,”insistedDaisy.
Nogle gange
SometimessheandMissBakertalte
talkedatonce,unobtrusivelyandmed
withabanteringinconsequencethatwasaldrig
neverquitechatter,thatwasaskøligt
coolastheirwhitedressesog
andtheirimpersonaleyesintheabsenceofalt
alldesire.Theywerehere,
og
andtheyacceptedTomandmig
me,makingonlyapolitepleasantefforttoentertaineller
ortobeentertained.They
vidste
knewthatpresentlydinnerwouldbeoverog
andalittlelatertheeveningogså
toowouldbeoverandcasuallylægge
putaway.ItwassharplydifferentfromtheWest,
hvor
whereaneveningwashurriedfromphasetophasetowardsitsclose,inacontinuallydisappointedanticipationeller
orelseinsheernervousdreadoftheøjeblik
momentitself.“Youmakeme
føle
feeluncivilized,Daisy,”Iconfessedonmyandet
secondglassofcorkybutratherimpressiveclaret.“Can’tyou
tale
talkaboutcropsorsomething?”Imeant
noget
nothinginparticularbythisremark,men
butitwastakenupinen
anunexpectedway.“Civilization’sgoingtopieces,”brokeoutTomviolently.
“I’vegottentobe
en
aterriblepessimistaboutthings.Har
HaveyoureadTheRiseoftheColouredEmpiresbydenne
thismanGoddard?”“Why,no,”I
svarede
answered,rathersurprisedbyhistone.“Well,it’s
en
afinebook,andeverybodyoughttolæse
readit.Theideais
hvis
ifwedon’tlookoutden
thewhiteracewillbe—willbeutterlysubmerged.It’s
alt
allscientificstuff;it’sbeenproved.”