THESISTERS
Therewasno
håb
hopeforhimthistime:itwasthethirdstroke.
Nat
NightafternightIhadpassedthehuset
house(itwasvacationtime)og
andstudiedthelightedsquareofwindow:og
andnightafternightIhavde
hadfounditlightedinthesamme
sameway,faintlyandevenly.Hvis
Ifhewasdead,Itænkte
thought,Iwouldseethereflectionofcandlesonden
thedarkenedblindforIvidste
knewthattwocandlesmustbesetatden
theheadofacorpse.He
havde
hadoftensaidtome:“Iamnot
længe
longforthisworld,”andIhavde
hadthoughthiswordsidle.Nu
NowIknewtheyweresande
true.EverynightasIgazed
op
upatthewindowIsagde
saidsoftlytomyselftheordet
wordparalysis.Ithadalwayssoundedstrangelyinmyears,
ligesom
likethewordgnomonintheEuclidog
andthewordsimonyintheCatechism.Men
Butnowitsoundedtomesom
likethenameofsomemaleficentog
andsinfulbeing.Itfilledme
med
withfear,andyetIlongedtobenearertoitog
andtolookuponitsdeadlyarbejde
work.OldCotterwassittingatthefire,smoking,
da
whenIcamedownstairstosupper.Mens
Whilemyauntwasladlingud
outmystirabouthesaid,asifvende tilbage
returningtosomeformerremarkofhans
his:.“No,Iwouldn’tsayhewasexactly...
men
buttherewassomethingqueer...der
therewassomethinguncannyaboutham
him.I’lltellyoumyopinion....”
Hebegantopuffathispipe,nodoubtarranginghisopinioninhis
sind
mind.Tiresomeoldfool!
Whenwe
kendte
knewhimfirstheusedtoberatherinteresting,talte
talkingoffaintsandworms;men
butIsoongrewtiredofhimog
andhisendlessstoriesaboutthedistillery.“I
har
havemyowntheoryaboutit,”hesagde
said.“Ithinkitwas
en
oneofthose...peculiarcases....
Men
Butit’shardtosay....”Hebegantopuff
igen
againathispipewithoutgive
givingushistheory.My
onkel
unclesawmestaringandsagde
saidtome:.“Well,soyour
gamle
oldfriendisgone,you’llbeked
sorrytohear.”“Who?”
said
Jeg
I.“FatherFlynn.”
“Ishedead?”
“MrCotterhere
har
hasjusttoldus.Hewaspassingbythehouse.”
I
vidste
knewthatIwasunderobservationsoIcontinuedspise
eatingasifthenewshavde
hadnotinterestedme.My
onkel
uncleexplainedtooldCotter.“Theyoungster
og
andheweregreatfriends.The
gamle
oldchaptaughthimagreatdeal,mindyou;og
andtheysayhehadet
agreatwishforhim.”“Godhavemercyonhissoul,”
sagde
saidmyauntpiously.OldCotter
kiggede
lookedatmeforastykke tid
while.Ifeltthathis
små
littlebeadyblackeyeswereexaminingmemen
butIwouldnotsatisfyhimbyse
lookingupfrommyplate.Hereturnedtohispipe
og
andfinallyspatrudelyintothegrate.“Iwouldn’tlikechildrenofmine,”hesaid,“to
have
havetoomuchtosaytoen
amanlikethat.”“Howdoyou
mener
mean,MrCotter?”askedmyaunt.
“WhatI
mener
meanis,”saidoldCotter,“it’sbadforbørn
children.Myideais:
let
en
ayoungladrunaboutog
andplaywithyoungladsofhisegen
ownageandnotbe....AmI
ret
right,Jack?”“That’smyprinciple,too,”
sagde
saidmyuncle.“Lethim
lære
learntoboxhiscorner.That’swhatI’m
altid
alwayssayingtothatRosicrucianthere:takeexercise.
Why,
når
whenIwasanipperhver
everymorningofmylifeIhavde
hadacoldbath,winterog
andsummer.Andthat’swhat
står
standstomenow.Educationis
alt
allveryfineandlarge....MrCotter
kan
mighttakeapickofthatlegmutton,”headdedtomyaunt.“No,no,notforme,”
sagde
saidoldCotter.Myauntbroughtthedishfromthesafe
og
andputitonthetable.“But
hvorfor
whydoyouthinkit’snotgodt
goodforchildren,MrCotter?”she
spurgte
asked.“It’sbadforchildren,”
sagde
saidoldCotter,“becausetheirmindsaresoimpressionable.Når
Whenchildrenseethingslikethat,youknow,ithar
hasaneffect....”Icrammedmymouth
med
withstiraboutforfearIkunne
mightgiveutterancetomyanger.Tiresome
gammel
oldred-nosedimbecile!Itwas
sent
latewhenIfellasleep.Selv
ThoughIwasangrywithgamle
oldCotterforalludingtomeasabarn
child,Ipuzzledmyheadtoextractmeaningfromhisunfinishedsentences.Inthedarkofmy
værelse
roomIimaginedthatIså
sawagaintheheavygreyansigt
faceoftheparalytic.Idrewtheblankets
over
overmyheadandtriedtotænke
thinkofChristmas.Butthegrey
ansigt
facestillfollowedme.Itmurmured;
og
andIunderstoodthatitdesiredtoconfessnoget
something.Ifeltmysoulrecedinginto
nogle
somepleasantandviciousregion;og
andthereagainIfounditventede
waitingforme.Itbegantoconfesstomein
en
amurmuringvoiceandIwonderedhvorfor
whyitsmiledcontinuallyandhvorfor
whythelipsweresomoistmed
withspittle.ButthenI
huskede
rememberedthatithaddiedofparalysisog
andIfeltthatItoowassmilingfeeblyasiftoabsolvethesimoniacofhissin.Det
ThenextmorningafterbreakfastIgik
wentdowntolookatdet
thelittlehouseinGreatBritainStreet
Street.Itwasanunassumingshop,registered
under
underthevaguenameofDrapery.Thedraperyconsistedmainlyofchildren’sbootees
og
andumbrellas;andonordinarydays
en
anoticeusedtohanginthewindow,sagde
saying:UmbrellasRe-covered.
Nonoticewasvisible
nu
nowfortheshutterswereoppe
up.Acrapebouquetwastiedtothedoor-knocker
med
withribbon.Twopoorwomen
og
andatelegramboywerelæste
readingthecardpinnedonthecrape.I
også
alsoapproachedandread:.July1st,1895TheRev.JamesFlynn(formerlyofS.Catherine’sChurch,MeathStreet),agedsixty-fiveyears.R.I.P.
The
læste
readingofthecardpersuadedmethathewasdød
deadandIwasdisturbedtofinde
findmyselfatcheck.Hadhenotbeen
død
deadIwouldhavegoneintodet
thelittledarkroombehinddet
theshoptofindhimsittinginhisarm-chairbydet
thefire,nearlysmotheredinhisgreat-coat.Måske
Perhapsmyauntwouldhavegivet
givenmeapacketofHighToastforhimog
andthispresentwouldhaverousedhimfromhisstupefieddoze.Itwas
altid
alwaysIwhoemptiedthepacketintohissorte
blacksnuff-boxforhishandstrembledtoomeget
muchtoallowhimtogøre
dothiswithoutspillinghalfthesnuffom
aboutthefloor.Evenasheraisedhislargetrembling
hånd
handtohisnoselittlecloudsofsmokedribbledgennem
throughhisfingersovertheforsiden
frontofhiscoat.It
kan
mayhavebeentheseconstantshowersofsnuffhvilke
whichgavehisancientpriestlygarmentstheirgreenfadedudseende
lookfortheredhandkerchief,blackened,asitaltid
alwayswas,withthesnuff-stainsofen
aweek,withwhichheforsøgte
triedtobrushawaythefallengrains,wasret
quiteinefficacious.Iwishedto
gå
goinandlookathimmen
butIhadnotthecouragetoknock.I
gik
walkedawayslowlyalongthesunnyside
sideofthestreet,readingalle
allthetheatricaladvertisementsintheshop-windowsasIgik
went.Ifounditstrange
at
thatneitherInorthedagen
dayseemedinamourningmoodog
andIfeltevenannoyedatdiscoveringinmyselfen
asensationoffreedomasifIhadbeenbefriet
freedfromsomethingbyhisdød
death.Iwonderedatthis
for
for,asmyunclehadsaidthenightfør
before,hehadtaughtmeagreatdeal.He
havde
hadstudiedintheIrishcollegeinRomeog
andhehadtaughtmetopronounceLatinproperly.He
havde
hadtoldmestoriesaboutde
thecatacombsandaboutNapoleonBonaparte,og
andhehadexplainedtomede
themeaningofthedifferentceremoniesofde
theMassandoftheforskellige
differentvestmentswornbythepriest.Nogle gange
Sometimeshehadamusedhimselfbyputtingdifficultquestionstomig
me,askingmewhatonebør
shoulddoincertaincircumstanceseller
orwhethersuchandsuchsinsweremortaleller
orvenialoronlyimperfections.Hisquestionsshowedmehowcomplex
og
andmysteriouswerecertaininstitutionsofde
theChurchwhichIhadaltid
alwaysregardedasthesimplestacts.ThedutiesofthepriesttowardstheEucharist
og
andtowardsthesecrecyoftheconfessionalseemedsogravetomethatIwonderedhvordan
howanybodyhadeverfoundinhimselfthecouragetoundertakedem
them;andIwasnotsurprised
da
whenhetoldmethatthefathersoftheChurchhavde
hadwrittenbooksasthickasthePostOffice
OfficeDirectoryandascloselyprintedastheloven
lawnoticesinthenewspaper,elucidatingalle
alltheseintricatequestions.Often
når
whenIthoughtofthisIcouldmakeikke
noansweroronlyameget
veryfoolishandhaltingoneuponsom
whichheusedtosmileog
andnodhisheadtwiceeller
orthrice.Sometimesheusedto
sætte
putmethroughtheresponsesoftheMasssom
whichhehadmademelære
learnbyheart;and,asIpattered,he
plejede
usedtosmilepensivelyandnodhishead,nu
nowandthenpushinghugepinchesofsnuffop
upeachnostrilalternately.Whenhesmiledhe
plejede
usedtouncoverhisbigdiscolouredteethog
andlethistonguelieuponhislowerlip—ahabitder
whichhadmademefeeluneasyinthebeginningofouracquaintancefør
beforeIknewhimwell.AsI
gik
walkedalonginthesunIrememberedgamle
oldCotter’swordsandtriedtohuske
rememberwhathadhappenedafterwardsinden
thedream.IrememberedthatI
havde
hadnoticedlongvelvetcurtainsog
andaswinginglampofantiquefashion.I
følte
feltthatIhadbeenmeget
veryfaraway,insomelandhvor
wherethecustomswerestrange—inPersia,Itænkte
thought....ButIcouldnot
huske
remembertheendofthedrømmen
dream.Intheeveningmyaunt
tog
tookmewithhertovisitthehus
houseofmourning.Itwas
efter
aftersunset;butthewindow-panesof
det
thehousesthatlookedtodet
thewestreflectedthetawnygoldofen
agreatbankofclouds.Nanniereceivedusinthehall;
og
and,asitwouldhavebeenunseemlytohave
haveshoutedather,myauntshookhandsmed
withherforall.The
gamle
oldwomanpointedupwardsinterrogativelyog
and,onmyaunt’snodding,proceededtotoilop
upthenarrowstaircasebeforeos
us,herbowedheadbeingscarcelyaboveden
thelevelofthebanister-rail.Atthe
første
firstlandingshestoppedandbeckonedusforwardencouraginglytowardstheåbne
opendoorofthedead-room.Myaunt
gik
wentinandtheoldkvinde
woman,seeingthatIhesitatedtoenter,begantobeckontomeigen
againrepeatedlywithherhand.I
gik
wentinontiptoe.The
rummet
roomthroughthelaceendoftheblindwassuffusedmed
withduskygoldenlightamidwhichthecandlesså
lookedlikepalethinflames.Hehadbeencoffined.
Nanniegavethelead
og
andwethreekneltdownatthefootofthesengen
bed.Ipretendedtopray
men
butIcouldnotgathermythoughtsfordi
becausetheoldwoman’smutteringsdistractedme.Inoticedhowclumsilyherskirtwashookedat
den
thebackandhowtheheelsofherclothbootsweretroddenned
downalltooneside.Den
Thefancycametomethatden
theoldpriestwassmilingashelå
laythereinhiscoffin.Men
Butno.Whenweroseog
andwentuptotheheadofthesengen
bedIsawthathewasnotsmiling.Der
Therehelay,solemnandcopious,vestedasforthealtar,hislargehandslooselyretainingen
achalice.Hisfacewas
meget
verytruculent,greyandmassive,med
withblackcavernousnostrilsandcircledbyen
ascantywhitefur.Therewas
en
aheavyodourintheroom—theflowers.Weblessedourselves
og
andcameaway.Inthe
lille
littleroomdownstairswefoundElizaseatedinhisarm-chairinstate.Igropedmy
vej
waytowardsmyusualchairinthecornermens
whileNanniewenttothesideboardog
andbroughtoutadecanterofsherryog
andsomewine-glasses.Shesettheseonthetable
og
andinvitedustotakeet
alittleglassofwine.Then,athersister’sbidding,shefilledoutthesherryintotheglasses
og
andpassedthemtous.Shepressedmeto
tage
takesomecreamcrackersalsomen
butIdeclinedbecauseIthoughtIville
wouldmaketoomuchnoisespise
eatingthem.Sheseemedtobesomewhatdisappointedatmyrefusal
og
andwentoverquietlytothesofahvor
whereshesatdownbehindhersøster
sister.Noonespoke:
we
alle
allgazedattheemptyfireplace.Myaunt
ventede
waiteduntilElizasighedandthensagde
said:.“Ah,well,he’sgoneto
en
abetterworld.”Elizasighed
igen
againandbowedherheadinassent.Myauntfingeredthestemofherwine-glass
før
beforesippingalittle.“Didhe...
peacefully?”
she
spurgte
asked.“Oh,quitepeacefully,ma’am,”
sagde
saidEliza.“Youcouldn’ttell
hvornår
whenthebreathwentoutofham
him.Hehadabeautiful
død
death,Godbepraised.”“Andeverything...?”
“FatherO’Rourkewasinwithhim
en
aTuesdayandanointedhimog
andpreparedhimandall.”“He
vidste
knewthen?”“Hewasquiteresigned.”
“He
ser
looksquiteresigned,”saidmyaunt.“That’swhat
det
thewomanwehadintowashhimsagde
said.Shesaidhejust
så
lookedasifhewasasleep,heså
lookedthatpeacefulandresigned.Ingen
Noonewouldthinkhe’dmakesuchasmukt
beautifulcorpse.”“Yes,indeed,”saidmyaunt.
Shesippeda
lidt
littlemorefromherglassog
andsaid:.“Well,MissFlynn,atanyrateit
må
mustbeagreatcomfortforyoutovide
knowthatyoudidallyoukunne
couldforhim.Youwere
begge
bothverykindtohim,Imå
mustsay.”Elizasmoothedherdress
over
overherknees.“Ah,poorJames!”
she
sagde
said.“Godknowswedoneallwe
kunne
could,aspoorasweare—wewouldn’tse
seehimwantanythingwhilehewasinit.”Nannie
havde
hadleanedherheadagainstthesofa-pillowog
andseemedabouttofallasleep.“There’s
stakkels
poorNannie,”saidEliza,lookingathende
her,“she’sworeout.All
det
theworkwehad,sheog
andme,gettinginthewomantowashhimog
andthenlayinghimoutog
andthenthecoffinandthenarrangingom
abouttheMassinthechapel.Onlyfor
Fader
FatherO’RourkeIdon’tknowwhatwe’dhave
havedoneatall.Itwashim
bragte
broughtusallthemflowersog
andthemtwocandlesticksoutofthechapelog
andwroteoutthenoticefortheFreeman’sGeneralog
andtookchargeofallthepapersforthecemeteryog
andpoorJames’sinsurance.”“Wasn’tthatgoodofhim?”
sagde
saidmyaunt.Elizaclosedhereyes
og
andshookherheadslowly.“Ah,there’s
ingen
nofriendsliketheoldfriends,”shesaid,“whenalt
allissaidanddone,ingen
nofriendsthatabodykan
cantrust.”“Indeed,that’strue,”
sagde
saidmyaunt.“AndI’m
sikker
surenowthathe’sgonetohiseternalrewardhewon’tglemme
forgetyouandallyourkindnesstohim.”“Ah,
stakkels
poorJames!”saidEliza.
“Hewas
ikke
nogreattroubletous.Youwouldn’t
høre
hearhiminthehouseanymere
morethannow.Still,I
ved
knowhe’sgoneandalltothat....”“It’s
når
whenit’salloverthatyou’llmisshim,”sagde
saidmyaunt.“Iknowthat,”
sagde
saidEliza.“Iwon’tbe
bringe
bringinghiminhiscupofbeef-teaanymere
more,noryou,ma’am,sendinghimhissnuff.Ah,
stakkels
poorJames!”Shestopped,asifshewerecommuning
med
withthepastandthensagde
saidshrewdly:.“Mindyou,Inoticed
der
therewassomethingqueercomingoverhimlatterly.WheneverI’d
bragte
bringinhissouptohimthereI’dfandt
findhimwithhisbreviaryfaldet
fallentothefloor,lyingryggen
backinthechairandhismouthopen.”Shelaid
en
afingeragainsthernoseog
andfrowned:thenshecontinued:.
“Butstill
og
andallhekeptonsige
sayingthatbeforethesummerwasoverhe’dgooutforakøre
driveonefinedayjusttose
seetheoldhouseagainhvor
wherewewereallborndowninIrishtownog
andtakemeandNanniemed
withhim.Ifwecouldonly
få
getoneofthemnew-fangledcarriagesthatlaver
makesnonoisethatFatherO’Rourketoldhimom
about,themwiththerheumaticwheels,forde
thedaycheap—hesaid,atJohnnyRush’sover
overthewaythereandkøre
driveoutthethreeofussammen
togetherofaSundayevening.He
havde
hadhismindsetonthat....Stakkels
PoorJames!”“TheLordhavemercyonhissoul!”
sagde
saidmyaunt.Elizatookoutherhandkerchief
og
andwipedhereyeswithdet
it.Thensheputit
tilbage
backagaininherpocketog
andgazedintotheemptygrateforsometid
timewithoutspeaking.