I
Inmyyounger
i
andmorevulnerableyearsmyotac
fathergavemesomeadvicekoji
thatI’vebeenturningoverinmyumu
mindeversince.“Wheneveryoufeellikecriticizinganyone,”hetold
mi
me,“justrememberthatallna
thepeopleinthisworldhaven’thadna
theadvantagesthatyou’vehad.”Hedidn’tsayany
više
more,butwe’vealwaysbeenneobično
unusuallycommunicativeinareservednačin
way,andIunderstoodthathemeantje
agreatdealmorethanda
that.Inconsequence,I’minclinedtoreserve
sve
alljudgements,ahabitthathasopenedupmnoge
manycuriousnaturestomei
andalsomademethežrtvom
victimofnotafewveteranbores.Na
Theabnormalmindisquicktodetecti
andattachitselftothisqualitykada
whenitappearsinanormalperson,i
andsoitcameaboutthatincollegeIwasunjustlyaccusedofbeingapolitičar
politician,becauseIwasprivytona
thesecretgriefsofwild,unknownmen.Većina
Mostoftheconfidenceswereunsought—frequentlyIhavefeignedsleep,preoccupation,ili
orahostilelevitywhenIrealizedbysomeunmistakablesignda
thatanintimaterevelationwasquiveringonthehorizon;fortheintimaterevelationsofyoungmen,
ili
oratleastthetermsinwhichtheyexpressih
them,areusuallyplagiaristicandmarredbyobvioussuppressions.Reservingjudgementsisa
stvar
matterofinfinitehope.Iamstilla
malo
littleafraidofmissingsomethingako
ifIforgetthat,asmyotac
fathersnobbishlysuggested,andIsnobbishlyponavljam
repeat,asenseofthefundamentaldecenciesisparcelledoutunequallyatrođenja
birth.And,afterboastingthiswayofmytolerance,Icometotheadmissionthatithasalimit.
Conduct
može
maybefoundedonthehardrockili
orthewetmarshes,butnakon
afteracertainpointIdon’tzanima me
carewhatit’sfoundedon.Kad
WhenIcamebackfromtheEastprošle
lastautumnIfeltthatIwantedtheworldtobeinuniformi
andatasortofmoralattentionzauvijek
forever;Iwantednomoreriotousexcursions
s
withprivilegedglimpsesintothehumansrce
heart.OnlyGatsby,themanwhogiveshis
ime
nametothisbook,wasexemptfrommyreaction—Gatsby,whorepresentedsve
everythingforwhichIhaveanunaffectedprezir
scorn.Ifpersonalityisanunbrokenseriesofsuccessfulgestures,thentherewas
nešto
somethinggorgeousabouthim,someheightenedosjetljivost
sensitivitytothepromisesoflife,asako
ifhewererelatedtooneofonih
thoseintricatemachinesthatregisterearthquakesdeset
tenthousandmilesaway.Thisresponsivenesshadnothingtodo
s
withthatflabbyimpressionabilitywhichisdignifiedunderthenameofthe“creativetemperament”—itwasanextraordinarydar
giftforhope,aromanticspremnost
readinesssuchasIhaveneverfoundinanydruge
otherpersonandwhichitisnotvjerojatno
likelyIshalleverfindagain.No—Gatsbyturnedoutallrightatthe
kraju
end;itiswhatpreyedonGatsby,whatfouldustfloatedinthewakeofhisdreamsthat
privremeno
temporarilyclosedoutmyinterestintheabortivesorrowsi
andshort-windedelationsofmen.My
obitelj
familyhavebeenprominent,well-to-doosoba
peopleinthisMiddleWesterngradu
cityforthreegenerations.TheCarrawaysare
nešto
somethingofaclan,andwehaveje
atraditionthatwe’redescendedfromtheDukesofBuccleuch,ali
buttheactualfounderofmylinewasmygrandfather’sbrat
brother,whocamehereinfifty-one,sentje
asubstitutetotheCivilRat
War,andstartedthewholesalehardwareposao
businessthatmyfathercarriesondanas
today.Ineversawthisgreat-uncle,
ali
butI’msupposedtolookkao
likehim—withspecialreferencetona
theratherhard-boiledpaintingthathangsinfather’suredu
office.IgraduatedfromNewHavenin1915,
samo
justaquarterofastoljeća
centuryaftermyfather,andamalo
littlelaterIparticipatedinthatdelayedTeutonicmigrationknownastheVeliki
GreatWar.Ienjoyedthecounter-raidsothoroughly
da
thatIcamebackrestless.Insteadofbeing
na
thewarmcentreoftheworld,na
theMiddleWestnowseemedkao
liketheraggededgeofna
theuniverse—soIdecidedtootići
goEastandlearnthebondposao
business.EverybodyIknewwasinthebondbusiness,soIsupposeditcouldsupportone
još
moresingleman.Allmyaunts
i
andunclestalkeditoverasiftheywerechoosingaprepschoolformi
me,andfinallysaid,“Why—ye-es,”sa
withverygrave,hesitantfaces.Otac
Fatheragreedtofinancemeforje
ayear,andaftervariousdelaysIcameIstok
East,permanently,Ithought,inna
thespringoftwenty-two.Thepracticalthingwasto
naći
findroomsinthecity,ali
butitwasawarmseason,andIhadupravo
justleftacountryofwidelawnsandfriendlytrees,sokad
whenayoungmanattheuredu
officesuggestedthatwetakeje
ahousetogetherinacommutingtown,itsoundedkao
likeagreatidea.Hefoundthe
kuću
house,aweather-beatencardboardbungalowateightyje
amonth,butatthelastminutethetvrtka
firmorderedhimtoWashington,a
andIwentouttothecountryalone.Ihad
je
adog—atleastIhadhimforje
afewdaysuntilheranaway—andanstarog
oldDodgeandaFinnishžene
woman,whomademybedi
andcookedbreakfastandmutteredFinnishmudrost
wisdomtoherselfovertheelectricstove.Itwaslonelyfor
je
adayorsountilonejutra
morningsomeman,morerecentlyarrivedod
thanI,stoppedmeonthecesti
road.“HowdoyougettoWestEggvillage?”
heaskedhelplessly.
Itold
mu
him.AndasIwalkedonIwas
usamljen
lonelynolonger.Iwasa
vodič
guide,apathfinder,anoriginalsettler.Hehadcasuallyconferredonmethe
slobodu
freedomoftheneighbourhood.Andso
s
withthesunshineandthegreatburstsofleavesgrowingonthetrees,baš
justasthingsgrowinfastmovies,Ihadthatpoznato
familiarconvictionthatlifewaspočinje
beginningoveragainwiththesummer.Therewassomuchto
čitanje
read,foronething,andsomuchfinehealthtobepulleddownoutoftheyoungbreath-givingzraka
air.Iboughtadozenvolumesonbanking
i
andcreditandinvestmentsecurities,i
andtheystoodonmyshelfinredi
andgoldlikenewmoneyfromthemint,promisingtounfoldtheshiningsecretsthatsamo
onlyMidasandMorganandMaecenasknew.I
AndIhadthehighintentionofreadingmnoge
manyotherbooksbesides.Iwas
prilično
ratherliteraryincollege—oneyearIwroteaseriesofvrlo
verysolemnandobviouseditorialsforna
theYaleNews—andnowIwasgoingtobringvratiti
backallsuchthingsintomyživot
lifeandbecomeagainthatmostlimitedofallspecialists,na
the“well-roundedman.”Thisisn’t
samo
justanepigram—lifeismuchmoresuccessfullylookedatfromajednog
singlewindow,afterall.Itwas
je
amatterofchancethatIshouldhaverentedje
ahouseinoneofthestrangestcommunitiesinNorthAmerica.Itwasonthatslenderriotous
otoku
islandwhichextendsitselfdueeastofNewYork—andgdje
wherethereare,amongothernaturalcuriosities,dvije
twounusualformationsofland.Twentymilesfrom
na
thecityapairofenormouseggs,identicalincontouri
andseparatedonlybyacourtesybay,jutoutintona
themostdomesticatedbodyofsaltvode
waterintheWesternhemisphere,na
thegreatwetbarnyardofLongIslandSound.Theyarenotperfectovals—likethe
jaje
eggintheColumbusstory,theyareoboje
bothcrushedflatatthecontactend—buttheirphysicalsličnost
resemblancemustbeasourceofperpetualwondertothegullskoji
thatflyoverhead.Tothewinglessamoreinteresting
fenomen
phenomenonistheirdissimilarityineveryparticularosim
exceptshapeandsize.IlivedatWestEgg,the—well,the
manje
lessfashionableofthetwo,iako
thoughthisisamostsuperficialtagtoexpressthebizarrei
andnotalittlesinistercontrastizmeđu
betweenthem.Myhousewasattheverytipofthe
jaje
egg,onlyfiftyyardsfromtheZvuka
Sound,andsqueezedbetweentwohugeplaceskoja
thatrentedfortwelveorfifteentisuća
thousandaseason.Theoneonmyrightwas
je
acolossalaffairbyanystandard—itwasje
afactualimitationofsomeHôteldeVilleinNormandy,s
withatowerononestrani
side,spankingnewunderathinbradom
beardofrawivy,andje
amarbleswimmingpool,andviše
morethanfortyacresoflawni
andgarden.ItwasGatsby’smansion.
Ili
Or,rather,asIdidn’tknowMr.Gatsby,itwasje
amansioninhabitedbyagospodin
gentlemanofthatname.Myown
kuća
housewasaneyesore,butitwasje
asmalleyesore,andithadbeenoverlooked,soIhadje
aviewofthewater,je
apartialviewofmyneighbour’stravnjak
lawn,andtheconsolingproximityofmillionaires—allforeightydollarsje
amonth.AcrossthecourtesybaythewhitepalacesoffashionableEastEggglitteredalongthe
vodu
water,andthehistoryofthesummerstvarno
reallybeginsontheeveningIdroveovertamo
theretohavedinnerwiththeTomBuchanans.Daisy
Daisywasmysecondcousinonceremoved,a
andI’dknownTominfaksu
college.Andjustafterthe
rata
warIspenttwodayss
withtheminChicago.Her
suprug
husband,amongvariousphysicalaccomplishments,hadbeenoneofthemostpowerfulendsthateverplayedfootballatNewHaven—anationalfigura
figureinaway,oneofonih
thosemenwhoreachsuchanacutelimitedizvrsnost
excellenceattwenty-onethateverythingafterwardsavoursofanticlimax.His
obitelj
familywereenormouslywealthy—evenincollegehisfreedoms
withmoneywasamatterforreproach—butsada
nowhe’dleftChicagoandcomeIstok
Eastinafashionthatrathertookyourdah
breathaway:forinstance,he’dbroughtdown
je
astringofpoloponiesfromLakeForest.Itwas
teško
hardtorealizethatačovjek
maninmyowngenerationwaswealthydovoljno
enoughtodothat.Whytheycame
Istok
EastIdon’tknow.TheyhadspentayearinFrancefor
bez
noparticularreason,andthendriftedovdje
hereandthereunrestfullywhereverljudi
peopleplayedpoloandwererichzajedno
together.Thiswasapermanent
potez
move,saidDaisyoverthetelephone,ali
butIdidn’tbelieveit—IhadnosightintoDaisy’ssrce
heart,butIfeltthatTomwoulddriftonzauvijek
foreverseeking,alittlewistfully,forthedramaticturbulenceofneke
someirrecoverablefootballgame.AndsoithappenedthatonawarmwindyeveningIdroveovertoEastEggtosee
dva
twooldfriendswhomIjedva
scarcelyknewatall.Their
kuća
housewasevenmoreelaboratenego
thanIexpected,acheerfulred-and-whiteGeorgianColonialmansion,overlookingna
thebay.Thelawnstartedatthebeach
i
andrantowardsthefrontvratima
doorforaquarterofje
amile,jumpingoversundialsi
andbrickwalksandburninggardens—finallykada
whenitreachedthehousedriftingupthesideinbrightvinesasthoughfromthemomentumofitsrun.The
prednji
frontwasbrokenbyalineofFrenchwindows,glowingsada
nowwithreflectedgoldandwideopentothetoplo
warmwindyafternoon,andTomBuchananinridingclotheswasstandings
withhislegsapartontheprednji
frontporch.Hehadchanged
od
sincehisNewHavenyears.Sada
Nowhewasasturdystraw-hairedčovjek
manofthirty,withaprilično
ratherhardmouthandasuperciliousmanner.Dvije
Twoshiningarroganteyeshadestablisheddominancenad
overhisfaceandgavehimtheizgled
appearanceofalwaysleaningaggressivelynaprijed
forward.Noteventheeffeminateswankofhisridingclothescouldhidetheenormouspowerofthatbody—heseemedtofillthoseglisteningboots
dok
untilhestrainedthetoplacing,i
andyoucouldseeaveliki
greatpackofmuscleshiftingkad
whenhisshouldermovedunderhisthincoat.Itwas
je
abodycapableofenormousleverage—aokrutno
cruelbody.Hisspeakingvoice,
je
agruffhuskytenor,addedtothedojam
impressionoffractiousnessheconveyed.Therewas
je
atouchofpaternalcontemptinga
it,eventowardpeopleheliked—andthereweremenatNewHavenkoji
whohadhatedhisguts.“Now,don’t
misliti
thinkmyopiniononthesemattersisfinal,”heseemedtosay,“justzato što
becauseI’mstrongerandmoreofamuškarac
manthanyouare.”Wewereinthesameseniorsociety,
i
andwhilewewereneverintimateIuvijek
alwayshadtheimpressionthatheapprovedofmei
andwantedmetolikehims
withsomeharsh,defiantwistfulnessofhisown.Wetalkedfora
nekoliko
fewminutesonthesunnyporch.“I’vegot
je
aniceplacehere,”hesaid,hiseyesflashingaboutrestlessly.Turningmearoundbyonearm,hemoved
je
abroadflathandalongna
thefrontvista,includinginitssweepje
asunkenItaliangarden,apola
halfacreofdeep,pungentroses,i
andasnub-nosedmotorboatthatbumpedna
thetideoffshore.“ItbelongedtoDemaine,theoilman.”
Heturnedmearound
opet
again,politelyandabruptly.“We’llgoinside.”
Wewalked
kroz
throughahighhallwayintoabrightrosy-colouredspace,fragilelyboundintothekuću
housebyFrenchwindowsateitherkraja
end.Thewindowswereajar
i
andgleamingwhiteagainstthefreshtravi
grassoutsidethatseemedtoraste
growalittlewayintona
thehouse.Abreezeblewthroughthe
sobu
room,blewcurtainsinatonekraju
endandouttheotherlikepaleflags,twistingthemupprema
towardthefrostedwedding-cakeoftheceiling,andthenrippledoverthewine-colouredtepih
rug,makingashadowonitasvjetar
winddoesonthesea.The
jedini
onlycompletelystationaryobjectinthesobi
roomwasanenormouscouchonkojem
whichtwoyoungwomenwerebuoyedupasthoughuponananchoredballoon.Theywere
oboje
bothinwhite,andtheirdresseswereripplingandflutteringasiftheyhadupravo
justbeenblownbackinnakon
afterashortflightaroundthekuće
house.Imusthavestoodfora
nekoliko
fewmomentslisteningtothebič
whipandsnapofthecurtainsi
andthegroanofapictureonthezidu
wall.ThentherewasaboomasTomBuchananshuttherearwindowsandthecaught
vjetar
winddiedoutabouttheroom,andthecurtainsandtherugsandthedvije
twoyoungwomenballoonedslowlytothefloor.The
mlađi
youngerofthetwowasje
astrangertome.Shewasextended
punu
fulllengthatherendofthedivan,potpuno
completelymotionless,andwithherchinraisedje
alittle,asifshewerebalancingnešto
somethingonitwhichwasvrlo
quitelikelytofall.Ifshesawmeoutofthecornerofhereyesshegave
nijedan
nohintofit—indeed,Iwasgotovo
almostsurprisedintomurmuringanispriku
apologyforhavingdisturbedherbycomingu
in.Theothergirl,Daisy,madeanattempttorise—sheleanedslightly
naprijed
forwardwithaconscientiousexpression—thenshelaughed,anabsurd,charminglittlelaugh,andIlaughedtakođer
tooandcameforwardintothesobu
room.“I’mp-paralysedwithhappiness.”
Shelaughed
opet
again,asifshesaidnešto
somethingverywitty,andheldmyruku
handforamoment,lookingupintomylice
face,promisingthattherewasnema
nooneintheworldshesomuchwantedtovidjeti
see.Thatwasawayshehad.
Shehintedin
je
amurmurthatthesurnameofthebalancingdjevojka
girlwasBaker.(I’vehearditsaidthatDaisy’smurmurwas
samo
onlytomakepeopleleanprema
towardher;anirrelevantcriticism
koja
thatmadeitnolesscharming.)Atanyrate,
Gđice
MissBaker’slipsfluttered,shenoddedatmegotovo
almostimperceptibly,andthenquicklytippedherglavu
headbackagain—theobjectshewasbalancinghadočito
obviouslytotteredalittleandgivenhernešto
somethingofafright.Again
je
asortofapologyarosetomylips.Gotovo
Almostanyexhibitionofcompleteself-sufficiencydrawsastunnedpočast
tributefromme.Ilooked
natrag
backatmycousin,whobegantoaskmequestionsinherlow,thrillingvoice.Itwasthekindof
glas
voicethattheearfollowsgore
upanddown,asifsvaki
eachspeechisanarrangementofnotesthatwillnikada
neverbeplayedagain.Her
lice
facewassadandlovelys
withbrightthingsinit,brighteyesi
andabrightpassionatemouth,ali
buttherewasanexcitementinhervoicethatmenwhohadcaredforherfoundteško
difficulttoforget:asingingcompulsion,
je
awhispered“Listen,”apromiseda
thatshehaddonegay,excitingthingsjustje
awhilesinceandthatthereweregay
gay,excitingthingshoveringinthenextsatu
hour.ItoldherhowIhadstoppedoffinChicagofor
je
adayonmywayIstok
East,andhowadozenljudi
peoplehadsenttheirlovekroz
throughme.“Dotheymissme?”
shecriedecstatically.
“The
cijeli
wholetownisdesolate.Allthecars
imaju
havetheleftrearwheelpaintedcrno
blackasamourningwreath,i
andthere’sapersistentwailsvi
allnightalongthenorthshore.”“Howgorgeous!
Let’sgoback,Tom.
Tomorrow!”
Thensheaddedirrelevantly:
“Yououghtto
vidjeti
seethebaby.”“I’dliketo.”
“She’s
spava
asleep.She’sthreeyearsold.
Haven’tyoueverseenher?”
“Never.”
“Well,yououghtto
vidjeti
seeher.She’s—”.
TomBuchanan,
koji
whohadbeenhoveringrestlesslyaboutthesobi
room,stoppedandrestedhisruku
handonmyshoulder.“Whatyoudoing,Nick?”
“I’mabondman.”
“Whowith?”
Itold
mu
him.“Neverheardofthem,”heremarkeddecisively.
Thisannoyed
me
me.“Youwill,”Ianswered
ubrzo
shortly.“Youwillifyoustayin
na
theEast.”“Oh,I’llstayintheEast,don’tyouworry,”hesaid,glancingat
Daisy
Daisyandthenbackatmene
me,asifhewerealertfornešto
somethingmore.“I’dbeaGoddamnedfooltoliveanywhereelse.”
AtthispointMiss
Baker
Bakersaid:“Absolutely!”
withsuchsuddenness
to
thatIstarted—itwastheprva
firstwordshehadutteredotkad
sinceIcameintothesobu
room.Evidentlyitsurprisedherasmuchasitdid
mene
me,forsheyawnedands
withaseriesofrapid,deftmovementsstoodupintothesobu
room.“I’mstiff,”shecomplained,“I’vebeenlyingonthatsofaforaslongasIcanremember.”
“Don’t
gledaj
lookatme,”Daisyretorted,“I’vebeentryingtogetyoutoNewYorkallafternoon.”“No,thanks,”saidMiss
Baker
Bakertothefourcocktailsupravo
justinfromthepantry.“I’m
apsolutno
absolutelyintraining.”Herhostlookedatherincredulously.
“Youare!”
Hetookdownhis
piće
drinkasifitwereje
adropinthebottomofje
aglass.“Howyoueverget
nešto
anythingdoneisbeyondme.”IlookedatMiss
Baker
Baker,wonderingwhatitwasshe“gotdone.”Ienjoyedlookingat
nju
her.Shewasaslender,small-breasted
djevojka
girl,withanerectcarriage,whichsheaccentuatedbythrowingherbodybackwardattheshoulderskao
likeayoungcadet.Her
sive
greysun-strainedeyeslookedbackatmes
withpolitereciprocalcuriosityoutofawan,charming,discontentedlice
face.Itoccurredtome
sada
nowthatIhadseenher,ili
orapictureofher,somewhereprije
before.“YouliveinWestEgg,”sheremarkedcontemptuously.
“Iknow
nekoga
somebodythere.”“Idon’tknowasingle—”.
“You
mora
mustknowGatsby.”“Gatsby?”
demanded
Daisy
Daisy.“WhatGatsby?”
BeforeIcouldreply
da
thathewasmyneighbourdinnerwasannounced;wedginghistense
ruku
armimperativelyundermine,TomBuchanancompelledmefromna
theroomasthoughheweremovingje
acheckertoanothersquare.Slenderly,languidly,theirhandsset
lagano
lightlyontheirhips,thedvije
twoyoungwomenprecededusoutontoarosy-colouredporch,openprema
towardthesunset,wherefourcandlesflickeredonthetableinthediminishedwind.“Whycandles?”
objected
Daisy
Daisy,frowning.Shesnappedthemoutwithherfingers.
“In
dva
twoweeksit’llbethenajduži
longestdayintheyear.”Shelookedatus
sve
allradiantly.“Doyoualwayswatchforthe
najduži
longestdayoftheyeara
andthenmissit?I
uvijek
alwayswatchforthelongestdan
dayintheyearandthenmissit.”“Weoughttoplansomething,”yawnedMiss
Baker
Baker,sittingdownatthetableasifsheweregettingintobed.“Allright,”said
Daisy
Daisy.“What’llweplan?”
Sheturnedtomehelplessly:
“Whatdo
ljudi
peopleplan?”BeforeIcould
odgovoriti
answerhereyesfastenedwithanawedizraz
expressiononherlittlefinger.“Look!”
shecomplained;
“Ihurtit.”
We
svi
alllooked—theknucklewasblacki
andblue.“Youdidit,Tom,”shesaidaccusingly.
“I
znam
knowyoudidn’tmeanto,ali
butyoudiddoit.That’swhatIgetformarryingabruteofaman,agreat,big,hulkingphysicalspecimenofa—”.
“Ihatethat
riječ
word‘hulking,’ ”objectedTomcrossly,“eveninkidding.”“Hulking,”insisted
Daisy
Daisy.SometimessheandMiss
Bejker
Bakertalkedatonce,unobtrusivelyi
andwithabanteringinconsequencekoja
thatwasneverquitechatter,koja
thatwasascoolastheirwhitedressesi
andtheirimpersonaleyesintheodsustvu
absenceofalldesire.Theywere
ovdje
here,andtheyacceptedTomi
andme,makingonlyapristojan
politepleasantefforttoentertainili
ortobeentertained.Theyknew
da
thatpresentlydinnerwouldbeoverandamalo
littlelatertheeveningtoowouldbeoverandcasuallyputaway.Itwas
oštro
sharplydifferentfromtheWest,gdje
whereaneveningwashurriedfromfaze
phasetophasetowardsitsclose,inje
acontinuallydisappointedanticipationorelseinsheernervousdreadofthemomentitself.“Youmakemefeeluncivilized,Daisy,”Iconfessedonmysecond
čaši
glassofcorkybutratherimpressiveclaret.“Can’tyou
pričati
talkaboutcropsorsomething?”Imeant
ništa
nothinginparticularbythisremark,ali
butitwastakenupinanunexpectednačin
way.“Civilization’sgoingtopieces,”brokeoutTom
nasilno
violently.“I’vegottentobea
užasno
terriblepessimistaboutthings.HaveyoureadTheRiseoftheColouredEmpiresby
ovog
thismanGoddard?”“Why,no,”Ianswered,
prilično
rathersurprisedbyhistone.“Well,it’s
je
afinebook,andeverybodyoughttoreadto
it.Theideaisifwedon’tlookoutthewhiterace
će
willbe—willbeutterlysubmerged.It’s
sve
allscientificstuff;it’sbeenproved.”